never mind i would just update it about today.
in the morning i went to grand ma house with my mom and sister to bring her out for breakfast. from her face i can see how happy she was on just a little thing- brought her out for breakfast. you know how heart-broken when you see the person you love since you were a baby getting older slowly, and you know one day she would leave you here in the world.
i truly know one day she will leave me, all of us. that's a cycle, we couldn't manipulate it. for the mean time, as long as she's still breathing, i'll do my best to delight her, no matter what. by the way, i love you my dear grand ma, and i meant it. i apologize if i ever hurt your feeling. you know i didn't do it on purpose, just some time temper fooled me around. love you.
and afterward i go nowhere. until like 4 something in the evening, Elaine, Tina, Senese and Michelle came to my house and picked me to KLCC. of course i actually followed them there to get Ivy a birthday present. Actually i didn't prepare Shin a present, just, you know i just don't feeling like preparing her a present. she just don't, maybe?
and finally, we decided to get Ivy an eyeliner! we went to Ana Sui to take a look, anyway, eventually they decided to go to Leisure Mall to pick one, since there's nicer and cheaper, why not? i get you point Senese. so literally we didn't get Ivy anything for the moment until they picked one at Leisure Mall. But we do get Elaine's uncle a birthday present. A wallet! Bonia one. of course it's quite expensive, but at the end she still bought it. 240 MYR after discount? maybe he honored it.
And i heard Yean says:
'Let's get cch and ccc a pair of boots for their soon birthday present. kind of pity looking at them couldn't join us for concert all the time.'
and in that instant, i thought of myself. Would they prepare me something like that for my coming birthday? I couldn't control myself from thinking something so shitty, something rubbish. and i know, they would, why wouldn't they? i always hope they will surprise me with something, but sometime, i always told myself 'do not ever expect too much if you don't want to disappoint yourself which could cost a double damage.'
well, leave that undisturbed, let me move on. During a walk with the girls in Parkson, surprisingly, i saw The Three Wen there. The Three Wen as in Xiao Wen, Yee Wen, Jia Wen. that's really surprising cuz' ever since that Time Square outing, we never meet again until today, they suddenly appeared in front of me. still, i feel a little sorry for Xiao Wen. I just thought i gave her a wrong affection.
until The Three Wen told me something. that 'something' really startled me.
' i saw Ka Seng and his girlfriend there.'
and they pointed at the other area under the same department. that was like WOW! under this small department i met The Three Wen, and now Ka Seng would suddenly appears from nowhere, and i told my self urgently i have to leave immediately!
Actually why am I escaping him? I'm not scared of him but why i just want to walk away like i owed him a million or something? and i vaguely regret that i said something really wrong.
'I hardly talk to him anymore. i guess we're no longer friend.'
And the Three Wen stared at me in horror. immediately at the back of my words followed by a 'why'. of course i didn't answer them, why would I? you know actually what hell thing was wandering in my mind that time? a scene popped out in my mind setting everything into motion.
i see 3 of them talking silently, and then moving to a table sitting with their gang- Angel, the nasty Gordon, Ying Hao and the rest of them. I'm too lazy to list everyone out, they don't worth my effort. Talking so desperately about the words I've had said, and giggling happily for the tragedy happened among The Three Musketeers- Ka Seng, Priya and I. Last time Priya used to address 3 of us in that way, despite we no longer were until i held a grudge against Ka Seng.
I don't know, i just hate him, for all the things he had done, the childish immature things, i just can't forgive him for the moment. I just don't want to talk about him anymore. He literally brought me down.
After i said good bye to The Three Wen, my friends smelled something and starting to ask what had happened between me and them, i try to avoid that particular topic and brought out some other ridiculous topic lol. i know you guys are great, just something I couldn't be more revealing. I appreciate that, thanks a bunch, seriously.
And eventually, we had our dinner here. wait, their dinner here- Yuzu. A Japanese restaurant, the foods were really good.
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| Tina - Senese |
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| Carlisle - Elaine |
And after dinner, after a small walk and after i sent them to the orchestra, I left. I left to the man-made pool located outside the mall, and have my little muffin which i bought just now, alone. And i called Priya telling her i was at KLCC and those coincidence bullshits. Not more than 5 minutes, my phone's battery died. So, i guess that's the end of our today's conversation, and that time i have a much more serious problem- how do i get home without a cellphone to call my parents drive to the LRT station and pick me up?
Eventually, i found my way home, always, cheers! *wink*
i took a bus, and it's actually quite convenient. i enjoy riding a bus alone without any friend some time. The silence figuratively gave a calm feeling. Staring out the window and thinking of the things which just happened less than 3 hours ago, everything were so virtual, unreal. 'sigh', i ended the silence bus ride with this word in a solemn tone.
i guess take a ride on a bus when you're emotionally unstable is a good thing. choose a night time, that actually quite soothing. ;)
