I thought i wanted to post a blog post everyday in Japan, seems that i lost track! Anyway, I had a great time in Japan. I'm still constantly thinking about Japan because... it is truly a nice place to visit. Hope to go again some day soon.
I recently received a lot of critical patients my back started to hurt as i work. Every time I see them getting better another critical patient comes in. It's never ending. But it was so satisfying to see them recover, moving a little better every day. I really love my job for this exact reason. Maybe because of that, too, I received a lot of foods recently ;)
I had been chatting with this person online and we finally met each other yesterday. We had a good long hours of chat until the shop literally chased us out. We called it the night then. I'm afraid to open up myself to others. I'm afraid to have my heart broken, or even fooled. I have had enough and I don't think i can take this pain anymore. Then, as much as I hope not to look for love, I went online (dating apps) and talk to people. I hate the community. They want everything instant. They love hooking up. They love NSA. I don't understand, I never did. Connection. Why aren't people looking for connection? It's difficult. And this happened.
I think, no matter how much you resists love, you crave for it even more. The more you suppress the more you struggle. I don't know how should I respond to it... really. Last night, I looked up the sky and asked, again, what plan do You have for me?
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