Expressing my gratitude

on Saturday, August 19, 2017
I have wanted to say this for a very long time but whenever it comes near to my mouth i halted. I feel embarrassing to express my gratitude for my colleagues. It shouldn't but it kinda makes me uncomfortable and i'm also afraid i will make them uncomfortable too. The first person i want to thank is Cecelia. She's my assistant who always do things for not only me but all the physios in the department. Well, she started off not as good but she catches up later on. The department has been busy these days. We do not have enough assistants, only 3 for the moment. One runs the counter, two run inside. One of the two is doing clerical works and whenever she does that, we left one assistant to serve 6 physios. Imagine that. Cecelia is the only we rely a lot on. Arcus is preparing to be launched. My boss is busy with that and Keshika, the assistant and also the clerk, at the same time have to attend to my boss for that too. They're just busy. My boss? I saw her stayed back almost every days the past one week even when she fell sick. You see. The one that's running the counter, Athirah, I sometimes left the timer with her and she is able to take care of that for me. There are many little details that they did for me I actually appreciate a lot but i think i never expressed my gratitude enough to all of them. Sometimes when i work until 9pm i help them out by unplugging the power point, switch off the lights and air-conds etc. but always left one thing for them to do to remind them that it's not compulsory for me to do that for you, it's your job after all, but i appreciate your hard work and i want to take some of your load off. I just don't think i say thank you often enough. I thank all of you guys very much, from the bottom of my heart. We work long hours, almost quarter or maybe more time at work, i somehow hope to just make our working environment a better one, a much bearable and happier one.

My grandma passed away last 2 weeks. I didn't go back for her funeral neither did i shed a tear. I feel sad that i don't feel sad at all. That's how our relationship really was in general. I'm only worried about my dad but God bless, he is doing fine. He took good care of him for me and so i can peacefully work far away from home. Thank you.

And to my mom and dad, thank you for sheltering me even when i'm far away. It warms my heart that there is still someone that aches for my pain, for whatever bad things i went through out there; someone out there willing to cry for it. This is exactly why whenever an old song plays in the radio, especially the one dad likes, it makes want to go home. Somehow, it feels like home.

Shin is getting married. She is the first one to get married in our circle. We are very excited for her. Her twins are coming next year too and i can't wait to be uncle Bryan. That reminds me of our promise in the Sky Bar many years ago. We made a pact, whoever gets married first will buy us one round of hard liquor to celebrate, and it seems like she is gonna be the one! She's getting married on 22nd October 2017, that's my best friend Yean's birthday too. It is going to be a good day!

I'm leaving to Australia very soon. I'm going to see Priya and her friends and the place she's staying very soon and i'm very excited i cannot wait for it. I made a mistake in my flight and i have to pay extra to amend my booking date. My mistake. Just this morning Priya helped me out by calling Jetstar and it turned out that i didn't have to pay full fare, only the amendment fees, which was good enough. She also told me that her friend will lend her a car to pick me up from the airport. That's some good news out of a mistake i made. Well, it wasn't that bad after all. For that, i thank her and her friend very much.

Liu Yuen Yuen once said in her speech, if you spend your entire life blaming for every single things life throws you, then you will live a life full with blames. If you you spend you entire life appreciate every single things life throws you, even if it's bad, then you will live a life full with gratitude. I hold tight to what she said because, somehow, it makes life that fill with all odds slightly easier.