today was totally a bad day!!!
stop urging me to do all those things, i already done all the things which i able to do, i couldn't do anything already until the courier send us the cheques! oh damn it!!
i called to the courier company for 4-5 times, reaching a point i feel quite embarrassing...
'him again?', i think that's what in their thought.
i know cm you're very concern about it since the cheque is already overdue, the interest was already in count, but the banker themselves are late to issue the cheques to us, so the best we can do is to keep follow up, what else can i do?
i already tried my best to give it the best shot, just hope that it hits the target. in the mean time, just be cool okay!! and i told Poh Chu about this already, so just relax, what she can do? i would just say:
'i told you already it's already due! i already chasing them the cheques!'
SHIT, DAMN IT, I HATE IT!
problems seem to be obvious lately, the courier, the bank, urgh just shut the fuck up and get out of my way!!
p/s: at facebook, i think wai kin still mad at me about the university thinggie... i know maybe that's my fault.
just not yet ready
see, i forgot what i want to say.
these days were dull, nothing interesting happen lately. oh yeah, i created a gmail address. and get in touch with google+. that's actually quite fresh to me in every aspect, hope more friends would join me.
and after dinner something almost impossible happened LOL i slept for four hours, from 8- 12, i guess i don't need to sleep anymore, no, i couldn't fall asleep anymore LOL
and out of nowhere, xiao wen sent me a message 'you heartless'
i was like 'what?'
after few messages only i know i forgot to greet her a 'happy birthday'. that's been a complicated moment, real complicated 1. before i decided to put her down in my life due to my stupid commitment, and this 'commitment' thiggie my family was so concern about, and they actually know what's dealing with me, that was, outstanding...
back to story, i actually confuse whether if i like her? you know and i know myself better, i'm not those kind of boys who can play with relationship, i like mature relationship, not those puppy and teenager love who don't even know how to take care on themselves. no, they don't even know what's that about, they just simply started one. or maybe I AM the one who worry too much, and that was WOW my father knew that. yeah during dinner time we talk about it a little.
sometime i feel sorry for her, dumping her like few times, maybe she doesn't even realized i dumped her. urgh i', lost, still, i'm so sorry about that.
while alone, i hope for a relationship.
but emotionally i am not ready yet.
these days were dull, nothing interesting happen lately. oh yeah, i created a gmail address. and get in touch with google+. that's actually quite fresh to me in every aspect, hope more friends would join me.
and after dinner something almost impossible happened LOL i slept for four hours, from 8- 12, i guess i don't need to sleep anymore, no, i couldn't fall asleep anymore LOL
and out of nowhere, xiao wen sent me a message 'you heartless'
i was like 'what?'
after few messages only i know i forgot to greet her a 'happy birthday'. that's been a complicated moment, real complicated 1. before i decided to put her down in my life due to my stupid commitment, and this 'commitment' thiggie my family was so concern about, and they actually know what's dealing with me, that was, outstanding...
back to story, i actually confuse whether if i like her? you know and i know myself better, i'm not those kind of boys who can play with relationship, i like mature relationship, not those puppy and teenager love who don't even know how to take care on themselves. no, they don't even know what's that about, they just simply started one. or maybe I AM the one who worry too much, and that was WOW my father knew that. yeah during dinner time we talk about it a little.
sometime i feel sorry for her, dumping her like few times, maybe she doesn't even realized i dumped her. urgh i', lost, still, i'm so sorry about that.
while alone, i hope for a relationship.
but emotionally i am not ready yet.
a chat with ying hao
on Wednesday, March 28, 2012
there's a lot of things to talk about, whenever i come to late in night, blogging, i forgot 3/4 of them ==
anyway, this morning at lrt i saw a pair of, i don't know they're a pair of couple, yeah both of them are male, gay couple, i saw them acting quite intimate, not for once, for quite some times actually. maybe i was thinking too much and too sensitive, but it seems real LOL
i think i gone nuts with that kind of breathless, complicated relationship.
oh yeah, and yen didn't come to work today, menstrual pain, gratitude boosted to my brain 'luckily im a guy' LOL that's true, at least i don't need to suffer a continuous monthly pain. and i saw Ms Lee sometime is kind of, erm, cute. i know that sounds weird but when you see her weary and anxious face you will have some kind of 'give a hand' feeling.
that is all begin from a file named teo fong loo, after i asked Jasmine about this file's problem then finally i understood why Ms Lee so anxious about this, a complicated property agent who gave a lot of stupid problems to us previously.
and at the night, ying hao talked to me about architecture thinggy. i think most of the time right we're affected by people. who you want to be in the future always altered by somebody, that sounds like not your choice anymore, seriously, they like to influence people. but you know, when you know what you want to be and you're so sure that you like it and you'll do it the best as you can, all the problems ain't a problem anymore, it's you goona make the future, not us, not them, you decide who you want to be.
ying hao, maybe we have a faith, you're one of the friend i care about, i really hope to see you with a successful and confident smile in the future, holding rolls and rolls of blue print in your hand, explaining desperately to me how you goona build it and describe how it works, in a 5 star dining place, and finally come out with a sentence:
'did i somehow bored you?', he grinned with an anxious face.
and i'll say:
'no, absolutely not, i know you're doing a great job, and i'm happy for you.' i shoke my hand and explained genuinely.
you'll do great, and i'll do great, we all will be great in the future, let's work hard now for a better future!
anyway, this morning at lrt i saw a pair of, i don't know they're a pair of couple, yeah both of them are male, gay couple, i saw them acting quite intimate, not for once, for quite some times actually. maybe i was thinking too much and too sensitive, but it seems real LOL
i think i gone nuts with that kind of breathless, complicated relationship.
oh yeah, and yen didn't come to work today, menstrual pain, gratitude boosted to my brain 'luckily im a guy' LOL that's true, at least i don't need to suffer a continuous monthly pain. and i saw Ms Lee sometime is kind of, erm, cute. i know that sounds weird but when you see her weary and anxious face you will have some kind of 'give a hand' feeling.
that is all begin from a file named teo fong loo, after i asked Jasmine about this file's problem then finally i understood why Ms Lee so anxious about this, a complicated property agent who gave a lot of stupid problems to us previously.
and at the night, ying hao talked to me about architecture thinggy. i think most of the time right we're affected by people. who you want to be in the future always altered by somebody, that sounds like not your choice anymore, seriously, they like to influence people. but you know, when you know what you want to be and you're so sure that you like it and you'll do it the best as you can, all the problems ain't a problem anymore, it's you goona make the future, not us, not them, you decide who you want to be.
ying hao, maybe we have a faith, you're one of the friend i care about, i really hope to see you with a successful and confident smile in the future, holding rolls and rolls of blue print in your hand, explaining desperately to me how you goona build it and describe how it works, in a 5 star dining place, and finally come out with a sentence:
'did i somehow bored you?', he grinned with an anxious face.
and i'll say:
'no, absolutely not, i know you're doing a great job, and i'm happy for you.' i shoke my hand and explained genuinely.
you'll do great, and i'll do great, we all will be great in the future, let's work hard now for a better future!
abnormal
on Tuesday, March 27, 2012
let me make a short post before i sleep.
i feel a little bit left out in my life, not in work or within family, just, friends. sometime i feel so empty and lonely, like, nobody talking to me since the day i became a little rude, i don't know. maybe i'm not studying, so friends became lesser and lesser.. maybe?
other than that, i feel a little abnormal. this not really happened recently, but like years or 2 already, which is a secret i never mention, write and tell.
i feel a little abnormal, as in, i don't know. sometime i feel i attracted to both man and woman. they call it bi. i know that's wrong, but it just happens, i really have no idea, i couldn't tell this to any1, just can't, i can't take the way people look at me once i told them, and i know if i call it a secret and order them not to tell any1, it not goona work.
i feel so guilty seriously, not only i watch the heterosexual porn, but gay porn as well, i feel so lost. i wish to tell, but i know no one i could tell, and they not goona embrace my abnormal interest.
i feel so confuse.
i feel a little bit left out in my life, not in work or within family, just, friends. sometime i feel so empty and lonely, like, nobody talking to me since the day i became a little rude, i don't know. maybe i'm not studying, so friends became lesser and lesser.. maybe?
other than that, i feel a little abnormal. this not really happened recently, but like years or 2 already, which is a secret i never mention, write and tell.
i feel a little abnormal, as in, i don't know. sometime i feel i attracted to both man and woman. they call it bi. i know that's wrong, but it just happens, i really have no idea, i couldn't tell this to any1, just can't, i can't take the way people look at me once i told them, and i know if i call it a secret and order them not to tell any1, it not goona work.
i feel so guilty seriously, not only i watch the heterosexual porn, but gay porn as well, i feel so lost. i wish to tell, but i know no one i could tell, and they not goona embrace my abnormal interest.
i feel so confuse.
jamming sunday
on Sunday, March 25, 2012
Sunday oh sunday, finally you're here, and tomorrow i have to go back to work T.T see, im quite lazy in a way haha!
did i mention that last Friday Ms Lee told me that i can work at Low Beng Choo Associates until end of July? yeah, im very happy now, if i work until end of July right that shouldn't be a problem to buy a laptop and GPS, thank God!
and talk about today, i went to elaine's house to jam! it's really fun i actually have a delighting moment. yean suppose to be there but she can't make it, her mother bring her to KLCC Harrods for lunch, damn it, how possible they're soooo rich, one day i'll be dining in Ritz Hotel everyday until i puke, don't kind me!! one day =.= damn it again
next week goona call ccc together, all of them have to be there! 2 men jam is kind of bored.
did i mention that last Friday Ms Lee told me that i can work at Low Beng Choo Associates until end of July? yeah, im very happy now, if i work until end of July right that shouldn't be a problem to buy a laptop and GPS, thank God!
and talk about today, i went to elaine's house to jam! it's really fun i actually have a delighting moment. yean suppose to be there but she can't make it, her mother bring her to KLCC Harrods for lunch, damn it, how possible they're soooo rich, one day i'll be dining in Ritz Hotel everyday until i puke, don't kind me!! one day =.= damn it again
next week goona call ccc together, all of them have to be there! 2 men jam is kind of bored.
chatty saturday
i am really happy today, a very delighting saturday.
afternoon i met up with swee mei, and we talk about ourselves, the way we concern on each other situation, that feels good. and we talk about our future, how you goona set up a business things like that, and she told me she wanna set up a kinder garden and tuition centre in her future, and she seems so enthusiastic, sincerely, i know you can do it, and all the best my bestie!
and i told her my plan too. i wish to establish a physiotherapy rehab centre in my future too, my own business. after i graduate, i'll work in hospital for few years to gain more experiences, skills and learn as much as i can, and look for a partner to set up 1 rehab centre, that sounds good right, i hope one day, it will comes true, seriously.
in the night i have a small gathering with my secondary school mates, shen xiang, jimmy, phui nying, pui piu, kai lin, zijie. we had a fun time, chat like no body business, the atmosphere is comfortable, just feel so good.kai lin went back home the 1st one, he got has a meeting tomorrow at school, he's a teacher in SJK C On Pong, of course temporarily. and followed by phui nying and pui pui, then us.
i found out that we're in the same topic. the reason is actually simple you know, we are studying almost the same thing, i mean the same scope, biology and physics, even though next time i more on biology, but we still talk about physics since shen xiang studying engineering, we never left any1 out one haha!
anyway, it's easier to find a topic to talk about, because we know the things, we're understand those science terms and knowledge, and thus much more easier to chat, and this making the conversation insanely awesome! im not kidding, if you found somebody that you can talk in such easy manner, you found the right one, correct person to talk to. i think next time, my friend will be around this field lol!
the friendship is simple, it goes naturally, easy and effortless. it just happens.
it's what it suppose to be, don't you think?
afternoon i met up with swee mei, and we talk about ourselves, the way we concern on each other situation, that feels good. and we talk about our future, how you goona set up a business things like that, and she told me she wanna set up a kinder garden and tuition centre in her future, and she seems so enthusiastic, sincerely, i know you can do it, and all the best my bestie!
and i told her my plan too. i wish to establish a physiotherapy rehab centre in my future too, my own business. after i graduate, i'll work in hospital for few years to gain more experiences, skills and learn as much as i can, and look for a partner to set up 1 rehab centre, that sounds good right, i hope one day, it will comes true, seriously.
in the night i have a small gathering with my secondary school mates, shen xiang, jimmy, phui nying, pui piu, kai lin, zijie. we had a fun time, chat like no body business, the atmosphere is comfortable, just feel so good.kai lin went back home the 1st one, he got has a meeting tomorrow at school, he's a teacher in SJK C On Pong, of course temporarily. and followed by phui nying and pui pui, then us.
i found out that we're in the same topic. the reason is actually simple you know, we are studying almost the same thing, i mean the same scope, biology and physics, even though next time i more on biology, but we still talk about physics since shen xiang studying engineering, we never left any1 out one haha!
anyway, it's easier to find a topic to talk about, because we know the things, we're understand those science terms and knowledge, and thus much more easier to chat, and this making the conversation insanely awesome! im not kidding, if you found somebody that you can talk in such easy manner, you found the right one, correct person to talk to. i think next time, my friend will be around this field lol!
the friendship is simple, it goes naturally, easy and effortless. it just happens.
it's what it suppose to be, don't you think?
still pain
on Tuesday, March 20, 2012
once i reached office in the morning, a stack of documents on my table, a lot of works to be done today. God bless, no error. and i have a very good morning when all my colleagues asked me about my university interview. thank you guys, i feel so warm, even the time we have met each other is still short, but this shows me it means more than that.. truly appreciate it, and this gives me a reason to work better for Low Beng Choo Associates.
in the afternoon and night, everything is just okay, nothing special happen though. it's bizarre i feel still sharp pain and a little emptiness and loneliness in my heart, i'm sure i'm not good handling this, dealing with emotion kills me a lot of time. i'm still recovering, still can't believe that they hurt me so much and deep.
there's actually an impulse that i want to delete my existing facebook account to finish up the whole connection with them, i just want to go on on my own, i don't need anymore distrations, that's enough. i want to delete it, change my hand phone numbers, makes it the end.
you both don't know what i'm going through, and you both are ignorant.
the scar, can never be removed, in eternity.
in the afternoon and night, everything is just okay, nothing special happen though. it's bizarre i feel still sharp pain and a little emptiness and loneliness in my heart, i'm sure i'm not good handling this, dealing with emotion kills me a lot of time. i'm still recovering, still can't believe that they hurt me so much and deep.
there's actually an impulse that i want to delete my existing facebook account to finish up the whole connection with them, i just want to go on on my own, i don't need anymore distrations, that's enough. i want to delete it, change my hand phone numbers, makes it the end.
you both don't know what i'm going through, and you both are ignorant.
the scar, can never be removed, in eternity.
haven- it gives the hint
this is something about today.. it's a hard day, suppose to be..
for the 1st time im setting this to 'people i choose', and i know, that's my final decision, i will never expose too much to people..
today suppose to be a delighting day. it's quite successful on my interview, i mean, university interview, i can see from those lecturer's faces, they're pleased. and the university im referring is UTAR, but after that old fcking stupid folk offended us, so that's it, and i don't think that is a very good university also, so, no harm done.
and straight after that interview, my mom and i went to MAHSA university college to apply, to study of course.. hehe, the point to go for UTAR's interview right. the fees is expensive, ptptn isn't fully covered, 60k out of 80k only, but my father gave me the confident, so, i showed him i have the determination to study physiotherapy, i can do it!! i will do what ever i know, i promise i won't let you down!
and then at night, i go out for a drink with Priya and the moronic yang ka seng, and at the end he really pissed me off.. the only reason i went out to meet them up is only one, to talk about our problem. but he doesn't seem like care about it, even a little. at the middle he just being so ignorant!
'that chick is hot!'
what the hell? i was talking something serious and he is acting so ignorant! what the fcking wrong with him, i seriously got pissed. there's the other one in the middle of the conversation..
'do you guys want to change table?'
fuck you! i don't know why, he making me so angry, what the hell is wrong with you!? and the end, the whole talk turn out to be my fault, that made me feel really bad... i am very upset, why are both of you, priya and ka seng making the whole thing is my fault? to be frank don't you guys have some responsibilities as well!! i hate this!
by time i reach home, after shower, i feel a lot calmer, i know now i'm in a haven, i feel secure, i feel safe.. and my mother and sister console me for the love of God.. now i know, home is my only haven, friend is not a permanent thing, they change as time go on, no one can be trusted, only family, and i thoroughly trusted them, from the core of my heart, thank you so much.. now i know what should i do..
i wish to move out of this horrible place, soon im moving to pj, which means i no need to see their fucking faces anymore.. which is a very good thing, thank God.. this meet up isn't a waste of time, now i know, entirely, how they behaving, especially ka seng, he is cunny, the one who backstabbing me, he is good.. i know what should i do.. thank for letting me know..
by time i let it go doesn't mean that i forgive you, i just don't want to let something so minor and unimportant to block my way for moving on, that's bloody unnecessary, get out of my life sucker, for god's sake!
now you both, were in my abandoned store room in my heart, never open the door anymore.. once i put it in, that'll be the end, you guys made it that way...
for the 1st time im setting this to 'people i choose', and i know, that's my final decision, i will never expose too much to people..
today suppose to be a delighting day. it's quite successful on my interview, i mean, university interview, i can see from those lecturer's faces, they're pleased. and the university im referring is UTAR, but after that old fcking stupid folk offended us, so that's it, and i don't think that is a very good university also, so, no harm done.
and straight after that interview, my mom and i went to MAHSA university college to apply, to study of course.. hehe, the point to go for UTAR's interview right. the fees is expensive, ptptn isn't fully covered, 60k out of 80k only, but my father gave me the confident, so, i showed him i have the determination to study physiotherapy, i can do it!! i will do what ever i know, i promise i won't let you down!
and then at night, i go out for a drink with Priya and the moronic yang ka seng, and at the end he really pissed me off.. the only reason i went out to meet them up is only one, to talk about our problem. but he doesn't seem like care about it, even a little. at the middle he just being so ignorant!
'that chick is hot!'
what the hell? i was talking something serious and he is acting so ignorant! what the fcking wrong with him, i seriously got pissed. there's the other one in the middle of the conversation..
'do you guys want to change table?'
fuck you! i don't know why, he making me so angry, what the hell is wrong with you!? and the end, the whole talk turn out to be my fault, that made me feel really bad... i am very upset, why are both of you, priya and ka seng making the whole thing is my fault? to be frank don't you guys have some responsibilities as well!! i hate this!
by time i reach home, after shower, i feel a lot calmer, i know now i'm in a haven, i feel secure, i feel safe.. and my mother and sister console me for the love of God.. now i know, home is my only haven, friend is not a permanent thing, they change as time go on, no one can be trusted, only family, and i thoroughly trusted them, from the core of my heart, thank you so much.. now i know what should i do..
i wish to move out of this horrible place, soon im moving to pj, which means i no need to see their fucking faces anymore.. which is a very good thing, thank God.. this meet up isn't a waste of time, now i know, entirely, how they behaving, especially ka seng, he is cunny, the one who backstabbing me, he is good.. i know what should i do.. thank for letting me know..
by time i let it go doesn't mean that i forgive you, i just don't want to let something so minor and unimportant to block my way for moving on, that's bloody unnecessary, get out of my life sucker, for god's sake!
now you both, were in my abandoned store room in my heart, never open the door anymore.. once i put it in, that'll be the end, you guys made it that way...
our oxygen, my oxygen!
on Monday, March 19, 2012
today had a full-relieving day with bunch of friends, and the same for yesterday.
yesterday i did not do much, in the morning i meet up with Priya at McDonald near her place and took breakfast together, talk for a while and we still have so many things to talk about, that's just.. amazing! suppose we go our for a walk after breakfast but apparently her plan with her other friends made her has to leave earlier, thought we can hang out for a moment, maybe next time.. as a compensation, she borrowed me her laptop for movies, okay, that's good enough! truly enjoyed the BLUE RAY VERSION AVATAR! you couldn't believe your eye, everything was so real and you'll feel like being pulled inside the movie, intriguing indeed!
about today, straight after tuition class, i went to Priya's place to return her laptop, of course we talk again for a moment that time making me late for the plan with yean, ccc and elaine. yeah, they called me join them to Leisure Mall Popular's book fair, and i just say 'YES'！
hell yeah, we bought so many things, and spent a lot, i bought 2 cds, Maroon 5 and Colbie Cailat, and three of them bought gaming cds, books, and some other things which i couldn't remember. and straight after Leisure Mall, we headed to Low Yat Plaza, of course for a reason, to take back yean's laptop which previously sent to AXUS's office to repair *under warranty*
today, just great, it's a lie- 'we don't need friend'. they're our oxygen, we need them. without oxygen, our life are suffocating, horribly dead.
p/s: tomorrow goona throw an intervention..
p/s: tomorrow goona throw an intervention..
not the best, but Enough
on Friday, March 16, 2012
these days posting without any picture, quite boring, i didn't take any photo so i couldn't help it.. but i guess this coming saturday, that post would come with at least a picture :D
anyway, in office everything is good, except today was quite tension, pressure maybe. but it's okay, tomorrow is friday, so let's us rock tomorrow!
i finish watching the 'walking dead'. i've done with season 1, but season 2 i have it until episode 7, i got to figure out a way to download the rest, question, cuz' i took the previous episodes from Andrea, so i need no to download anything :D but unfortunately she has it only until season 2 episode 7 ;(
anyway, is a movie which worth to watch, is the 2nd english series after 'how i met your mother' (all the seasons until the latest episode). i starting to think, that's pathetic humanity starts to be seen only when zombie apocalypse crush on us. and just now, the 7th episode of season just made me tearing, that's so sad, and we can't do anything except to finish 'it' up, we couldn't help it in any other way.
what's going to happen when zombie apocalypse really happens? i can't imagine.. and now i'm so contented with my own life, maybe not very good, but enough.
anyway, in office everything is good, except today was quite tension, pressure maybe. but it's okay, tomorrow is friday, so let's us rock tomorrow!
i finish watching the 'walking dead'. i've done with season 1, but season 2 i have it until episode 7, i got to figure out a way to download the rest, question, cuz' i took the previous episodes from Andrea, so i need no to download anything :D but unfortunately she has it only until season 2 episode 7 ;(
anyway, is a movie which worth to watch, is the 2nd english series after 'how i met your mother' (all the seasons until the latest episode). i starting to think, that's pathetic humanity starts to be seen only when zombie apocalypse crush on us. and just now, the 7th episode of season just made me tearing, that's so sad, and we can't do anything except to finish 'it' up, we couldn't help it in any other way.
what's going to happen when zombie apocalypse really happens? i can't imagine.. and now i'm so contented with my own life, maybe not very good, but enough.
my vow
on Sunday, March 11, 2012
suppose i update it on friday but i was too lazy, so..
we went out for dinner.. that picture was taken after dinner LOL.. but who cares i just wanna take a group photo x)
and on saturday i went out with wen for a short time, just a simple talk. and i guess, i will just be me, i don't know and i couldn't control the way people look at me, as long as i didn't harm people and things like that, and no one hurt me or what, i'll just do whatever i think it's correct. i don't know i'm very, super fresh or.. as long as it didn't involve me, i'll just keep myself off from the incident. if you ask me, i will say it directly, if you don't, i won't say a thing, i vowed.
today onward, i will learn to zip my mouth up, listener i would be, slowly, need no talk about people, it hurts people and it didn't seem to benefit me anyhow. not selfish, just people grown up, they have their way to manage it, i'm pretty sure they will always do it better than me, and so i don't see any else reason to interject further.
so, that's it i guess.
we went out for dinner.. that picture was taken after dinner LOL.. but who cares i just wanna take a group photo x)
and on saturday i went out with wen for a short time, just a simple talk. and i guess, i will just be me, i don't know and i couldn't control the way people look at me, as long as i didn't harm people and things like that, and no one hurt me or what, i'll just do whatever i think it's correct. i don't know i'm very, super fresh or.. as long as it didn't involve me, i'll just keep myself off from the incident. if you ask me, i will say it directly, if you don't, i won't say a thing, i vowed.
today onward, i will learn to zip my mouth up, listener i would be, slowly, need no talk about people, it hurts people and it didn't seem to benefit me anyhow. not selfish, just people grown up, they have their way to manage it, i'm pretty sure they will always do it better than me, and so i don't see any else reason to interject further.
so, that's it i guess.
thoughts in a talk
on Thursday, March 8, 2012
what about today? a lot of things happened, mostly in the office.
i get a document bag from Ms Low, i mean all of us get 1 cuz' she got numbers of extra, instead of leaving all there coated by dust,
"find a master for all of them", i thought.
hahaa! anyway, thanks!
at night, i had a small talk with my mom in the car on the way to fetch my sister from tuition. there's 2 reasons i studying, mainly to restore the dignity for my parents, our family. i promised, no one ever can bully or in a much more serious manner, humiliate us further.
secondly for my future. my plan, everything, i want to have my own life, the pictures i'm imagining, that's wonderful. i know, still daydreaming, but soon, that'll be real , watching myself in works, entertainments, hanging out, dating and, in love.
i get a document bag from Ms Low, i mean all of us get 1 cuz' she got numbers of extra, instead of leaving all there coated by dust,
"find a master for all of them", i thought.
hahaa! anyway, thanks!
at night, i had a small talk with my mom in the car on the way to fetch my sister from tuition. there's 2 reasons i studying, mainly to restore the dignity for my parents, our family. i promised, no one ever can bully or in a much more serious manner, humiliate us further.
secondly for my future. my plan, everything, i want to have my own life, the pictures i'm imagining, that's wonderful. i know, still daydreaming, but soon, that'll be real , watching myself in works, entertainments, hanging out, dating and, in love.
birthday bosh!
on Wednesday, March 7, 2012
today was my boss Ms Lee's birthday, so we held a small and quick and nice birthday party for her. even Ms Low was there for her birthday party :D
her daughters presented her a bouquet coming together with a box of chocolates, and a hand-made card, which look very nice in a way hahaa! the lunch is not so delighting for me, but im sure she like it a lot, and the cake, i would say WOW.. fully covered with chocolates, ladies like chocolate more than ever i thought.
"today i took the most calories for the past few months", muttered Ms Low, and i chuckled in silence.
today, she looked overly delighting, in kind of a hidden way? i guess?
anyway, atmosphere in office today was filled with happiness. ;)
her daughters presented her a bouquet coming together with a box of chocolates, and a hand-made card, which look very nice in a way hahaa! the lunch is not so delighting for me, but im sure she like it a lot, and the cake, i would say WOW.. fully covered with chocolates, ladies like chocolate more than ever i thought.
"today i took the most calories for the past few months", muttered Ms Low, and i chuckled in silence.
today, she looked overly delighting, in kind of a hidden way? i guess?
anyway, atmosphere in office today was filled with happiness. ;)
see you ;)
on Tuesday, March 6, 2012
today i was quite relief, don't know the reason but i feel damn good anyway. not to say give up, but by time you stop clenching your fist and hold no more grudges for just anything, it's so making you happy, and your neck will no longer stiff.
i know right, it's as general as a kid would know, but some time kid understands it better than us, unpainted mind gives a naive picure somehow..
and now, i chuckling and giggling on my own for being so silly for quite some time, depressants, i got to kick your ass out of my body. stopwatch started, saying "good bye" for the time being.
see you some other day, no, i rather say "let's not meeting up anymore."
i know right, it's as general as a kid would know, but some time kid understands it better than us, unpainted mind gives a naive picure somehow..
and now, i chuckling and giggling on my own for being so silly for quite some time, depressants, i got to kick your ass out of my body. stopwatch started, saying "good bye" for the time being.
see you some other day, no, i rather say "let's not meeting up anymore."
reasonless down
on Monday, March 5, 2012
reasonless, just brought me emotionally down in the moment.. crap, all craps! emptiness boost no adrenaline to my brain, god i need help somehow.. i know no one can actually help me, all i got to do it myself, one day i have to keep on doing almost everything by myself.. what a life, could be such helpless and devastating some time..
or i choose this path instead of other?
kind of... ambigous...
or i choose this path instead of other?
kind of... ambigous...
Friday night on 2th March
on Saturday, March 3, 2012
first delighting post in March, i could be more coming up next, i guess but i doubted it =/
anyway, few days before, we agreed to meet up with each other on Friday, so after work would be the best timing. unfortunately, raining heavily and it delayed me for the plan. thank God, luckily cm borrowed me her umbrella or else i would be very late.
so, managed to catch up on time, and took dinner together and had a short walk, that's great, after some time we didn't really hang out :D plan to watch a movie but the time doesn't allow us to do so, maybe next time.
oh yeah, at that time there was a Japanese fashion show on going and that was pretty good!
anyway, today's kind of relaxing, after all those messes. this is sane enough, after all.
p/s: thanks for ringing me again Swee Mei ;)
anyway, few days before, we agreed to meet up with each other on Friday, so after work would be the best timing. unfortunately, raining heavily and it delayed me for the plan. thank God, luckily cm borrowed me her umbrella or else i would be very late.
so, managed to catch up on time, and took dinner together and had a short walk, that's great, after some time we didn't really hang out :D plan to watch a movie but the time doesn't allow us to do so, maybe next time.
oh yeah, at that time there was a Japanese fashion show on going and that was pretty good!
at around, hmm, 9pm i guess we headed to another mall and had a short break and chattering a little while haha!
anyway, today's kind of relaxing, after all those messes. this is sane enough, after all.
p/s: thanks for ringing me again Swee Mei ;)
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