Deep Night Delivery

because of new year, today my boss giving us a half day leave :D

since im leaving office 5 hours earlier, i called Zijie out for lunch, we had chatted for a while, for how long we didn't take lunch together?

night right, i went out to take dinner with cch, that's a great dinner, we talked a lot, and now i know myself a little better, haha! we should call other people, and do this more often. other than taking dinner at cafe, actually normal chinese restaurant also quite nice what?

and at time of 11.30+, Zijie came to my house a delivered me a cup of Fruit Tea, far away from Pavilion Snowflake deep in night, hahaaa! thanks so much that's so sweet ;D fruit tea: combination of 2 slices of orange and passion fruit, taste is good and smell was like, very fresh.

Fruit Tea

more things to do tomorrow, i better get enough of sleep :D

christmas present

so, few days after Christmas actually, but anyway i still received a christmas present in my company.

according to my colleague, they said that Ms Low which is one of our bosses always prepare presents for them every christmas. for me was kind of out of expectation, for a newbie who did not even work more than a month get a christmas present lol! thank you so much i love my present <3

it's actually a Brookstone pen.

few days more, i officially worked at Low Beng Choo Associates for one month. next year, whatever goona happen, i will just do my best.

in the mean time, i'll just live.

christmas eve party 2011

before i start my story, i saw ''400''!! what about ''400''? that's my blog post reached 400 posts!! today, which is a Christmas, i declare that this is the 401th post!!

good, enough of bull shit, let's get into the main topic.

with the presence of all my friends, with all the help given by my friends, i successfully made a, urm, for me, i made an unforgettable Christmas eve party. by the way, this is my first party i held!! anyway, thanks CCH, Wen and June for coming earlier to give me a hand. and the my cute little cousin and sister for helping me so much for the party, most of the decorations were done by them, sincerely, thank so much!!!

Decorations done by cousin , sister and mommy :D

for our dinner i got to say million thanks to my parents. my father brought back 40 ''cucuk'' of Kajang satay when he's on his way back home. and my mother went out to pack foods for our dinner, curry chickens, friend rice, noodles, thanks for everything. the only thing i do was something very simple, buy some junk foods, champagne, and and and CHICKEN WINGS!! that's actually quite popular, that's the first food finished by my guests hohoho...

my ''big eye'' guests LOL

and then, i prepare some games for them actually, but we only successfully play one game, which already killed us more than an hour of time lol. and the most ''what the hell'' thing is, I LOSE IN MY OWN GAME!! arghhh, never mind as long as they had fun. after that we had a little junk foods session.

''who am i''

"who want WISE???"
"MEEEEE!!!!!!!"

guess who is that ''MEEEEE!!!!''.. YEAN! YOU, YEAH YOU!! no no, everyone likes WISE hahaa, that's the best chips among the other brands. luckily i bought this instead of other brands, even myself love that brand's chips.

and then, after that, we moved from indoor to outdoor and enjoy our dessert. i prepared some watermelons for them and i think it'll be the best after all the heavy foods we had during dinner. sit here and there, chat for a while, that's really peace, what christmas eve meant to be. when the time reached 12, oh my god, world war 3 get started. i just managed to shoot some after-scenes and effects. well done, that's AWESOME!

after effect 

and then this part, which all of us had been waited for the whole time, PRESENT EXCHANGE SESSION! how we pick the present? i actually came out with an idea, instead of using numbers which is used by most of the people, maybe we can come out with some creativity. stick a poker card on the present such as ''heart king'', and then we people pick the "diamond king" which is figuratively same with the the card stick on present, so that's yours one eventually. in case people chose back his own present, then we got to redo again. that's actually quite fun for me ;D

present exchange session

after that we enjoy chocolates and champagnes. thanks yean for bringing the chocolate house to the party, that chocolate house was so amazingly beautiful and SOLID. that's really cool for not melting in room temperature.

and here, we slowly end our chirstmas eve party celebration when people going back one by one.

guys, without you i wouldn't have make so many of memorable moments, since we are young, the pictures are still so obvious, switching page by page, and i realize that we had been go through so many things and awesome moment together. without you guys, today's me wouldn't be here.

thank for making today's me. 

you guys are just awesome, amazing, wonderful, pretty, handsome, cool and FANTASTIC! 

p/s: for swee mei, you did not miss anything, we still talked about you in the party. everybody were so concern why are you not here. figuratively you are here together with us enjoying the party, so, no more ''=('' yeah in facebook comment <3

appreciation speech 3: baby Bong

Ying Hao

He won't sue me for copyright right?

about him:

hmm, serious speaking at first when i met him, i don't really have a feeling talking to him actually, i don't know why it just simply not likely to happen where weeks later i found it wrong, statement was totally wrong!

i guess our first topic was about guitar. during that time i still don't know that he's a guitar expert, and he plays very good songs by the way. we talk a lot about musics, guitars, and then slowly he became my guitar teacher, that was quite delighting actually, and i'm really impress by his music talent where after few months only i found out that he knows how to play piano, even reached teacher's level! *diam diam ubi berisi* i asked him a lot of music theories that time and he has the patience to teach me slowly, he could be a good music teacher, seriously! thank him a lot, without him my guitar skills probably still below average.

and one of the thing he did which made me remembered until now, that was so profound. he tickled me when i'm soooo concentrate, 100% concentration all on miss Vicky's lecture, that really challenged my patience where few seconds later i lost control and yelled at him. well, i'm sorry but NOT THAT TIME!! i am so concentrate that time ah Bong!! that made the whole lecture hall's eye staring at us, lol, that actually quite epic, in a way haha!! and during my birthday celebration, to extend the celebration i didn't go back to home that day, i had fun with them until late night and that night i slept over at his place. really thanks la i don't know how to express anymore, that's more than words x)

i think he's the only guy who i feel he can make a very good life partner, i don't know why, that's what my six sense telling me. and then, there's actually no such thing like: how am i goona to be, i do not have a fashion sense and i don't really interested on fashion, it can be that simple, a T-shirt, trouser or short pant, and a pair of sneaker or slipper, that would be my daily attire. for this i think, she will feel boring, and bla bla bla... i'm going to freak her out!

personally, that not suppose to be a problem. you know why, that can be changing and improve slowly. and she picked you among all the others 1, there's other personalities she so much more interested on rather that that bloody fashion trash, that's totally not a problem. and of course she'll give you a hand for everything, so.. for the mean time, let's chill bro.

pick something you like, either business or science, either music or chef, they're just giving advice, and you're the one who choose the path. go for something you in love with, live a colourful life as you wish!!

best wishes,
sai kit :)

appreciation speech 2: sweetish Wen

so, here she is:

Xiao Wen

GOD i do not know how to start. i couldn't remember much about her, when is our first talk, where did we meet and when is her birthday! hey, just kidding here, of course i know when is her birthday!

oh yeah, i remembered eventually. the first day in college i can't really spot her because.. hmm... don't know? simply didn't see her *Laughing* anyway, i do have some sweet memories with her. i think, among the whole gang of girls, she's the only girl with mind that is the most matured, and sometime she appears to understand my feeling. August, thanks for the conversation, that really helped me a lot, and when can we go out for lunch again? *wink*  not sushi king again, somewhere better :D

my first college trip was last year, i, i mean WE went to her hometown MALACCA to enjoy our holiday. that's the very first time i started getting close to her and starts to understand her. her mother, which is very friendly and warm. the first day we reached her house was about 12am midnight and her mother was still waiting for us. and the next day before we go home, she prepared a lot of foods for us as our breakfast, that's really touching, and in a way, super duper friendly. i saw her sister and her sister's boyfriend. the only 1 left i didn't see is her father. so i don't really know how her father looks like.

serious speaking, i didn't really social with her a lot, normally with the whole gang of friends, except for trip and movies. or can i say, we hardly talk? not really. but anyway, there must be something causing something really ''chemistry'' on me of her, so.. well, there's actually nothing we can't talk.

but, secret should stays secret.

by all mean, thanks God for letting me to meet you, there's no regret :)

best wishes,
sai kit :)

appreciation speech 1: cheerful Angel

she got plenty of pictures, let me choose the best in my eye:

Angel

i think this is the best among those.

let get my speech started. try to get back some memories, when's our first talk? oh yeah, i remembered! SUPER JUNIOR SUPER SHOW 2! because of the T-shirt i wore, that brings our 1st talk along. i still remembered some words: 

waw, super junior! u went to their concert?

no? i was in charged in that event.

that's it, haha! this girl has an amazing personality which i admired since i met her until now, FRANK. in simpler word, straight forward. i realize that i feel very comfortable talking with people who talk a lot, not crap of course, like tells story like nobody business. she tells right and wrong things about people in front of all of her friends. which sometime she thinks that, that might be a problem in communication, not many people can accept that but however, for me that's like a GIFT that not deserve to treat like a trash, you understand me? of course i know you won't do that, you love yourself more than everyone does.

sometime there's things that i can't tell but always remember that, you're the sweetest girl ever i met in college, even a smile or a profile'less smile can cheer me like, A LOT! remember that there's been a friend who touched your little head once a while for giving you encouragement whenever you need it.

that's quite funny, i wrote like i know a lot but actually i don't. anyway, always remember to carry your ''gift'' everywhere where i guess it'll leads you to somewhere special and i'm sure you goona like it!

best wishes,

sai kit :)

bukit tinggi, last windy sunday

last sunday we went to bukit tinggi. okay, quite fun, and the weather is very windy and cold. 

immediately came back from there i fell sick wtf! on monday, early in the morning still feel okay but after lunch time, i start sneezing and running nose, begin to lost my concentration on work, feeling dizzy..

so today, i called back to office and took leave. rest for the whole day, starts feeling okay again. hopefully by tomorrow, i'll be okay. God bless.

7th of December

today was quite busy in the office, done a lot of things, most of the documents were cleared, but some of it still hanging there, client oh client!

sending all the bank loan files and S&P files back to their address stated in the document, attached with a letter which is typed by me! even though there's some typo error but i think should be okay? perhaps.

start to get use of office's equipment, and so for the environment, feel a lot comfortable. still feel a little nervous and depressed when handling the documents, but i have to endure, pay more attention, and i trust on my own!

tomorrow, do your best again!!

p/s: a productive day!

5th of December

today was my second day working at legal firm. did i even mention that i'm now working in a legal firm as a temp. office boy? x)

fine not the point. still, today nothing much to do, still doing something really basic. sometime feel a little pressure when doing those basic works, the documents are all dealing with law, so, but so far i haven't get in touch with any of it!

work harder, perhaps one day boss might take me to a launching?!

p/s: this afternoon, ''A2 results'' come and disturb me HOLYSHIT!

stomach's butterfly, 2nd of December 2011

yesterday went to jalan ipoh where the legal firm located, and had an interview there, and thus, i postpone my job as a promoter at Lewi's. out of my expectation, i got the job and start working immediately on the next day, which is today.

i'm very excited, a little bit of nervous and mood swing, of course that's actually normal because i'm on my way stepping into adulthood, actually, i should grab tight this opportunity. learn as much as you can, gain as much experience as you can, you can do it!

a work under pressure, with pressure, one day it can makes me stronger.

thank for making me stronger.

30th november 2011

my life has never be such terrific. everything should run in a correct pace and orbit but it seems pretty screwed up.

see, what goona happen tomorrow.

oh god I HATE IT!

misery, 29th of November

i don't know, maybe today is a bad day, none of us are happy today.

an emergency pops out, 

an obstacle blocked 'friendship' from keep going. 

challenging, challenging, 

what would it be, how would us be?

wonder if we could get through this bloody obstacle,

kick its ass out of our life,

that would be a deeper and higher level of our relationship.

its an evolution, 

one more step towards the path of light.

wonder if that day would come.

best thing

you know when is the best moment?

that's when you chatting with your friends no matter what way you use like skype, msn, facebook chatbox, the best thing is when they are making you laugh and smile even in a cute kind of sarcastic way, in my own opinion, that's really delighting me.

there's no regret for being you guys' friend and you guys willing to be my friend.

p/s: friend is not about quantity but quality indeed.

GOT HIRED

finally, hard works do pay out.

I GOT HIRED!

burdens are lighter compare to last few days, i have no reason for not worrying, money kept going but nothing coming in, even flies felt my wallet was stink.

i'm so relieved right now.

so, grab tight your opportunity, do your best on 1st December 2011!

24th of november

sometime you feel like typing something, but you don't know what should you type.

actually today nothing special happen, but something bothered me, quite a lot. something goes wrong and now i'm so glad that i eventually set myself A LITTLE BIT free.

 i've been too serious these days and sometime i felt that i gave them pressure. why must i be like that? i don't know, i'm born in that way and that's God's wish. sometime thing doesn't seems that serious and i made it like that, maybe disagreements lead me that way, that was killing!

i just finished my exams and apparently most of them are enjoying while i'm so busy looking for job. i have few interviews in a row before i finish and exams and currently i went to few interviews, now i'm waiting for the feedback. you know what they tell me, stop doing this, at least give yourself a short period of rest, you always in a hurry and stop rushing yourself, you're too panic for everything!

do i have any choice, there's too many things to consider, they comfort me with their words and i appreciated that but i don't want to leave myself unplanned, maybe there's always something out of our planning but there's far more things for me to learn, i'm still learning like how baby learns to crawl!

here some tips for me:

a) relax, there's always an alternative.
b) chill, things aren't going that bad.
c) what up? stop measuring so hard on yourself.
d) confront, it always help you get out from dilemma.
e) don't worry, there's always family and best friends for you.
f) why don't you go without any plan, just go ahead with what you thought of!
f) stay cool and don't worry about your life, go.with.where.it.leads.you.


not a hard quest though, keep walking, don't stop.

12 hours

that's what i call a person free from jail.

went to Levain to take our brunch, and celebrated Elaine's belated birthday, thanks them for postponed it for me, until i end my exam. the only part where i felt a little bit wasted was Yin and Shin couldn't make it, but still hope next time you guys able to join us!

put for fun, i like our natural way haha,
thank our photographer Qiang!

then, nothing to do actually until night. during the time interval, i mean afternoon, i played X-Box with them at Yean's house. that was really fun since there's the first time i play such game where the ''machine'' can actually detect my body, and and, urgh hard to explain, if you have a chance, pay off everything to try it out!

and then, the climax of the day, MPO time!!! thanks Yean for buying me a very cheap ticket at first, and of course a very nice seat where i can see those performers play the music. oh yeah, i din't mention who did go with me, Yean! Elaine! Chee Hoe!

and before MPO, we took dinner at Chinoz the Park. had a very nice dinner, and million thanks to Yean!

after MPO ended, stomach hungry again. so we decided went to Yean's Father's food court to eat. so, guess what, her father spent us for our supper, seriously, quite awkward la, but thanks anyway!

talk about MPO, that was so bloody nice, i just like it, worth to pay to watch them play those impressive musics! thumbs up!

p/s: i had a lot of fun, in 12 hours, thank guys!

T.G.I Friday

finally, what a relieving day, a-levels, OFFICIALLY ENDED!!!

oh yeah, before that, early in the morning we gave Zarrah the present. not really a celebration, just some simple cupcakes, that's the best we can do for her actually, hope she'll like it.

to celebrate this big day, i went out with my friends. at first took breakfast at Kuchai Lama, the wantan mee recommended by Ka Seng was really good, i quite sure i'll go again :)

and then, head to Leisure mall, what else, for neway of course! phlegm was stuck at the middle of my throat months ago and now i finally get rid of it. seriously, i had a lot of fun!

p/s: that's what i call it T.G.I. Friday, specially for today's Friday.

a plan for Zarrah *censored*

MAGIC! 17th of November right now, and 1 day before my last paper which is biology paper 5! gosh i'm going to finish my A-levels soon!!! for my friend who dropped biology, NOW THEY OFFICIALLY ENDED A2 EXAMINATION!! congrats them but soon, will be my turn!!

this friday suppose to attend SPUS farewell party but sadly, they cancelled everything due to some some some some reasons which i don't know. so thanks Priya for telling me again :)

and so 16th nov. was Zarrah's birthday. that reminds me of my birthday where she actually made a cake for me. but now is her birthday and i just send her a happy birthday message? i kind of feel guilty. so, here's the plan.

*censored*

fine, friday Priya, Ka Seng and i will have a surprise for her, not a big 1 at least a surprise.

p/s: mentioned quite a lot of dates cuz' blogger's date was kind of screwed.

11th of november

2 days ago i went to Priya's home to take the whole 6 seasons of ''How I Met Your Mother'' series, that was awesome and so damn hilarious!

and you know, that comedy taught me a lot of things. something hard to talk about but you'll truly understand and agree with it, all the things should work in that way, supposingly.

that's how a relationship should be, and it can be really sweet.

and that's how a friendship should be, and it can be fight and noisiness around, the most important thing is to confront it, well, maybe what i had written here is hard to understand but, i, well, you know..

i never leave my parent since i was born, and i am being protected all the time. i'm kind of curious about my life when i leave my parent and live on my own. i know that is a insane and crazy idea for a person who does not has any economical support and zero employment state to say that but i am really looking forward to it.

can't stop thinking how will it be when i am going to live with my best friends, how crazy we can be, get down to a pub and talk about our day, complain about our lecturers and maybe boss, watch sport games together and shout like a douche, celebrate our birthday with a party hat on our head, oh yeah oh yeah and i can't leave this out, celebrate festivals together, CNY, Christmas, oh god that can be insanely awesome, insanely a good idea, overall!!

i know it's not easy, but i hope eventually one day, maybe when i started my real job, and i'm given a chance to try this out, i most probably going to call Priya and Ka Seng to join me, rent a condo, or an apartment, talk about the decorations in our new home, where to put the 48' LED TV, woaow, what type of couch are we getting, making few DIY lamps for our hall, what kind of paintings going to put on the wall, and what kind of plants should we put at the balcony, that will be incredibly wonderful, amazing, and, and, AWESOME, AGAIN, YEAH!

we should work it out guys, after A-levels, that shouldn't be the end, that's a lot more than that, right!

oh yeah, com'on, hypothetical five !!!

10th of november

look, it's been a long time i never come here. wait, last week i had been here, owh sorry something caught my nerve these days.

so, 2 days ago, no, yesterday was our chemistry exam. guess what, well, terrible. i don't know what should i say anymore, i just want the time passes as fast as possible in the exam, i don't know why stop asking jerks! i know it's like i'm going to give up but NO WAY! I'M JUST GET TOO TIRED OF IT!

2 more papers, i will get through it!

when i'm sad, i stop being sad and be awesome instead, true story! GODDAMMIT I LOVE THIS LINE!

good night!

you'll see !!

the pain on shoulder getting worse. every morning once i open my eyes and try to move my head, my shoulder and neck give me a short pain. it's killing me everyday.

bio paper four and pure math were down. this friday is applied math. let see, what will happened next.

the exam not only for me, but to prove it to some people. bless the hell out of me GoD!

salute!

i always feel that a-level lecturers are all very smart. i mean, they are just too smart, they know almost everything on their own subject. they're just too great overall!

salute!

will you?

dear blog,

27th of october, 1.33 midnight.

one more day to death line, my heart was pounding that fast which i can actually heard that lup dup sound, that obvious. i'm doing quite a lot of works these day, i mean, not really A LOT but i'm doing some.

i saw a short note in my phone. that reminded me about my AS examination. how it was? how i, i mean, all of us actually pass through that exam? that 12 days of nightmare which kill most of our brain cells. again, when i took a look on my A2 examination time table, it's only 5 days which we actually have papers to sit for, just the time interval is incredibly long. but think about it, in fact it's a good thing doen't it?

just few more days, the exam will end. when it ends, everything will back to normal. i miss my fellow friends, who i always go hang out with. the flashback about the moments we fool around were actually so unforgettable, and i felt i missed out so bloody much of things. i miss you fools, i mean my lovely friends.

a level, i scarificed uncountable things for you, and so, i hope for my return. will you?

westlife

i opened one of my folder in my computer. ''Westlife''. there are full with their songs, all were old songs. i listened to it one by one, until i finish the whole list.

all the songs made me think of my childhood. Westlife boy band was my childhood band, the first english song i listen to was sang by Westlife, if i let you go. that made me, so touched. and then, i google up them and try to get myself into their current affairs.

and guess what, they are going to leave the stage, the music stage, after they publish their last album soon on November 26 2011, and after 14 years this band had been established. that is a really sad news for me. i really like them a lot, my childhood is all about them. i missed their concert last few weeks ago due to exam. i guess i have no chance anymore to go to their concert. =(

anyway, good luck. not only me, fans around the whole world will be by your side and miss you, all the best yo you guys!

do you know?

suppose to be a really delighting day when right after i came back from college HE ruined everything.

early in the morning i was asked to be presented in bio practical class for the cake cutting ceremony specially for ms Vicky who is going to leave our college, as well as us and all other lecturers to pursue her PhD, that was actually a good thing, wish you all the best and may God bless you! thanks for your guiding and helped us to shoot for the moon. fine, maybe not so accurate, but at least among the stars.

anyway, thanks for everything and we'll miss you :)

and the rest of my day, as usual. and at 5 o'clock, when we're going to head to lrt station, suddenly there's a heavy downpour. when i reached the back gate of college with 2 of them ka seng and priya, i stopped walking cuz i don't want to get wet, and the 2 bastards dragged me out and forced me run in the rain with them, shit that was so... EPIC! THEY DRAGGED ME OUT INTO THE RAIN!! so, my whole body got wet, and i don't see the points from resisting myself not to walk in the rain, prevent myself from being getting wet, urgh, they turned my world all up side down, but, however, i kind of like it. i've never been that crazy before. and the moment we reached for ka seng's car, the rain stops. and the last sentence i heard from him, "fuck you, you stop raining only by now!", 2 of us got amused.

i reckon if i caught a cold, i'll make their chin swell!

so, finally, now i come to the main part. at first, when i helping my mom to return some kitchen stuffs back to my neighbor who lives few houses away from us, i'm kind of happy cuz' i saw an old friend. last few days i saw him walking on pedestrain on his own and me, myself thinking how's he doing. so now, i felt that i'm too enthusiastic about people's matter, he's doing really good i guess.

i walked to him where the place he parked his car. at first i'm really very happy, i thought i can chit chat with him about his current life but, well, that not really going that well. from what i see, i din't see he's packing his things a little faster, or call me to wait for him for maybe just a moment, and he just left me waiting at the back. and he even lighted up a cigarrette and take his own sweet time.

that's the first thing that challeged my patience. and after that, i tried to ask him about his current affairs, or his life, he not really entertain me. and by  the 2nd time i asked him when he starts smoking, and he just reply me in i feel that is kind of a rude way. after that, he move his head a little higher and exhaled the unhealthy cigarette smokes. i got offended, cuz' i felt that he's trying to show me something. i don't know whether my nervous system got stuck or what, i seriously got pissed off.

i have no idea whether i'm too sensitive or he's not in a good mood that moment, but IF he does has a thoughts really want to show me how MAN he is, or how MATURED he looked right now with the CIGARETTE on his hand and showing me that irritating movements, i'll just say you really have a small brain, that's it.

i'm not kidding i got paused for few seconds on thinking how to reply him to continue the conversation and so the atmosphere wouldn't become that awkward, does he ever think how embarrass people would be? even when i get back into my house, i'm thinking myself, "do i say anything wrongly and i spoil his mood?", maybe i do but so far i don't see any of it yet.

i'm a little bit sad how could he became like that. i don't see a point doing this to your friend who know you for at least 3 years, and did nothing bad on you for the last few months, or maybe up to a year. is there anything happened on you, or i think too much? anyway, take care my friend. i don't show any offends to you by writing this blog post, but i just need a place to... you know, i actually don't mean that. perhaps you think that is all bullshit, but, for me, it's not.

i used to give people advice, and i fail myself.

p/s: if i hurt you, i'm sorry.

we can

printed out my exam timetable and looking at it, the time was arranged in quite an organize way. we'll get extra time to study while waiting the next exam coming up.

the only headache case is our first day, 2 critical subjects come at once. hectic, hectic.

all of us can do it. yeah, we can.

friday, no difference

so, TGI Friday! but anyway, it's still the same for me, and maybe everyone, all the a level exam candidates, everyone is studying. so my lunch today was taken in burger king with all the girlssss tadaaa canris, nicole and priya! ka seng didn't join us anyway today but still, kind of suprise he actually came to today's lectures.

again, few more days, few more weeks! just a little bit more and i'm free!!! today's hardworks will make my futures!!

p/s: canris: when you find you're tired, do not eat fast foods!

madness

these days were so tiring. almost everyday i got to stay back at college with my friends and study like mad. i tried very best to convice myself,saying that there's few more days to go, 2 weeks more to reach deathline and roughly 1 more month to end the most stupid exam ever in the world. but what can i do, i need this cert! i need it for my university, for godsake!

urgh stupid Priya is just beside me and i am being annoyed by her right now, can' even construct a proper sentence with all the noices made by her, urghhhh!!

good day everyone!

p/s: except Priya. *shhh....*

dedicated to: Steven

this morning is too much, i felt annoyed by him but now i feel a little, guilty. yeah maybe he's out of control but he isn't want to do that. so here i apologize, and may God bless you.

good luck in your undertakings. 

day in Isetan and Harrods

overdrives brain isn't good for health, any of us, working or studying, that's killing. that's a brand new excuse for me to revision. excuse, that's the reason for it: i went to klcc to get some clothes since there's Isetan sale. and, people buying things like they ever do. stack and stack of clothes, tops, pants, shoes, belts, socks, inner garments.. and look at  their receipt, that's long and the figures at the bottom, that might freak you out.

well, story got to come back to me. i went there with one of my bestie and she's a good shopper indeed. and meanwhile, we took rest at Harrods. that was really cool, i can't really believe i'm actually there. and for this, i honored  her a good eater as well. expensive, but that's a good experience anyway. we stay alive to try out various kind of things, but not drugs. *chuckling*

p/s: as life moves on, go with what it leads you.

i'm nuts

ops someone making a post today again. but well, i don't really care about this but the main thing is i really missed this keyboard. urgh Jesus Christ when is the exam going to finish, one and half month going to the end i can't stand it anymore. i can't stand any second more to get out from the prison, free from being a prisoner for over one year and just, breath some fresh air. i just need those really fresh air fill my nostrils.

for christsake, bless me with my f*king exams. i guess i'm nuts.

just a random photo, i kind of hate
post without photo.

p/s: ops ops something get really wrong here, no vulgar anymore :) *no promise*

零分

我对我自己说过，在我完成我的考试之前，我是不会上线。但是，今天我违反了我自己定下的规则。

我今天真的满伤心。并不是因为我自己，不是因为考试，不是因为朋友，是因为我觉得我自己一点都不懂得体谅，不懂得了解别人的心情，不懂得孝顺，更不懂得做别人儿子。

这一阵子一连串发生的，不能说很好，也不能说不好，算是平平淡淡，无风无浪。学院因考试而变得平静，朋友之间的矛盾因时间慢慢冲淡，也开始想不起来因为什么而闹得奇怪。想起来起好像与我无关，干什么去做伟人。然后又给自己造了个借口，因为想要懂得保护自己。回想上个星期六的晚上，一个值得纪念的晚上，朋友的生日给了我一个和老朋友们团聚的日子。老实说，真的很开心，和他们在一块是很自然、很轻快的事。大家认识都快七年了，不说一百巴仙了解，也有八十吧？值得开心的，我还有他们在我身边。大家不知道未来的事，现在开心这就行啦！

音乐课停止了，家教也停止了，因为考试越来越逼近，剩下的时间不多，压力开始渐渐加重，应该把手头上不关考试的东西搁在一旁。不料，麻烦找上了我。今天下午，妈的情绪崩溃，扛了很久的压力一瞬间引爆。事情起因于四月那时候，以为问题已经解决，其实并没有，而且还带到现在，我很是意外。这件事情闹得差点家变，不料现在又有十尺高的大浪迎面盖来，而且还是同一个大浪。

当时屋内只有我和她，她对我说了一些发生在公公去世后的那几天，也就是她守孝的那几个晚上，她是多么的害怕和无助。有先生好像没先生，有孩子好像没孩子。我只能说，我当时只会想着自己，只会害怕自己受伤害，而不起理会或是去体谅别人的心情。我真的很讨厌我自己，为什么我会那么不成熟？年龄将近二十的我还学不会体恤别人，在那种时候为什么我还能抱怨些什么？为什么还要一位守孝的孩子体谅我？为什么我会那么的不长进？那种情况下因该是我来安慰她，支持她，守在她身旁，让她还有一个依靠，让她知道还有人在她身旁，叫她安心。我连这一点都不明白，做不到，我很失败。身为一个儿子，分数已经处于零下部分。

我看着她的眼泪一直这样流，我的心真得很酸，原来我跟一个十岁余的黄毛小子没什么两样。一个人，身为一个人的儿子还是女儿，在能力范围之内，尽力量别让这些事情发生，你会很难过。过去的日子，我错过了体恤她的机会，在未来的日子，我不会从蹈覆辙，学会关心和谅解她，尽能力让她我们还在关心她，让她知道她不是一个人，她永远都不会是一个人。

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hey birthday

wow 6.46am Wednesday in the morning, going out to college but before that, let me make a short post.

hmm, yesterday was Jia Wen's birthday. so as i made it for Angel, i'm going to do the same for her as well. so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, again lol. i don't know how many times i've repeated haha!

guys

girls

so, hope you'll like all the surprises from all of us. for that video, i think it's super duper touching for birthday girl since even me got soo ''wow''. i get surprise when the video is playing haha! it's good but the resolution.. haha! well, good job guys!

p/s: 有时想着有原则是不是件好事，应不应该改掉。想着想着，不，改了就不是我了。有些事情]该坚持的就得坚持。

you, you're.

today was so relaxing. since mr Chen went to Genting so i do not need to go McD. conclusion: the whole day was wasted.

early in the morning went out with my family, breakfast, lunch, dinner, shopping and so much more. after my parents fetched sis and i back to home, they went out again. today's miracle: they never feel tired.

during the night, went to mamak stall with 2 of them. chatting like normal about our current issues. that was fun, everyday has fresh news. everybody is selfish, even to their own family members.

successfully, i put all my stress away. i enjoy my day very much. yesterday is the first time i pray, i don't know whether that's true or not, but i feel a lot comfortable and happier. 

i need to regain my strong mind, to overcome all the challenges. remember, sk, you're nothing, you're not able to change the world but you, you can help yourself. don't think that you're so great, you're, when you able to take care of yourself well enough. get rid of the useless craps as fast as you can, craps are all troublesome. YES THEY'RE!

p/s: thank you fa.

awaken

i went to youtube tonight, just to listen to a song that i wanted to listen long time ago, a song that i like very much, from Sammi Cheng. i mean, from young, she's my idol.

i watch a live video about her. how i feel now is.. 澎湃? i do not know how to describe it, but i get a lot of comfort from what she had said in the interview.

a lot of things which she said in the video, hit me like bullet, accurately to my body.

i need to change. i need strength. i was extremely down in part of my life and i do not know where else i can go except towards my family. of course my family is important to me, but i need another source, who can helps me and comforts me.

now, i know what should i seek for. keep moving on, don't stop walking. look for the thing you missed in the past few years. i throughly understand that, sometime, religion, isn't about superstitious, is just that you need Him to help you, rescue you, comfort you when you're going to explode.

we're a small creature, we cannot affort too much of stress or burdens, you need somebody else, like family, or maybe Him to help you out. i understand it, because i've been awaken.

p/s: 有时候，那种性格不叫“直接”，而叫“自私”。

Tell

我能告诉你的，我一定会告诉你。

若我选择告诉你，就一定不会骗你。

magnetic friendship

today MY CLASS i assumed it until 9am, but suppose there's another class at 12pm, after 3 hours lol. but i don't care, not goona stay for this week. maybe next week x)

to clear my mind out, Priya accompanied me to KLCC today. we just walk a while, after that sit in front of the park and talk for a while. actually i appreciate very much that i have her as my ear, she's the only one who accompany me to everywhere, listening to me most of the time. 

glad to have you as my friend Khavi.

oh yeah, she took a photo of me there but i forgot to get it from her this morning. never mind i'll upload it here as soon as i get it from her tomorrow.

*uploaded*

p/s: magnetic friendship: Ka Seng: Sai Kit: Priya

hi-5 day by US!

so, about today, ANGEL'S BIRTHDAY! happy birthday again to you, 19 years old already and don't be so childish anymore. sorry i can't go for your dinner :( i guess you guys will still had fun :)

oh yeah, i drove to college today. asking why on a person who doesn't like to drive like ME! hmm, going back to office to hand in something, forced to drive, refill petrol tank, eventually left my bonuslink card at the counter at petrol station urghh!

well, never mind. thanks again mr Chen for accompanying me to go to old klang road today. 

told mr chen im going to post a photo of me with bandana which he gifted it to me :D looks weird on me anyway.

very 1st pattern =.=

p/s: last few weeks Priya, Ka Seng and I called it a ''stupid day''. for today, we called it a ''hi-5 day!''. guys, hi 5!

apology

feel so tiring these days. burden getting heavier. not i wanna post all this rubbish but this is my only recycle bin.

i've been tagged by my friend in this photo once, i upload it today, and say sorry to myself. few of it happened recently, and now, i smile =)

p/s: 对自己说声对不起，因为伪装让自己很累。

dilemma

scanning through those status posted by friends on facebook. actually i have nothing better to do except this.

wanted to post something as my status but so hard for me to express my feeling. yeah, just remember, it's nothing to do with you. so, story stopped here.

at college, nothing really happen, which is a good thing actually. din't meet Ka Seng for the whole week, so chit chat for quite some time and know about his current status. dont worry everything will be fine.

there's so much of thing which is not easy, earning is not easy, life is not easy and bla bla bla. Mr David's phrase kept appearing in my mind: read between the lines. and i guess it will forever be my guideline.

DO NOT TRUST PEOPLE EASILY. you know nothing more about them :) being transparent eventually hurt yourself yay!

p/s: *study mode starting at a slow pace*

BA 2nd day [milo]

today was the last day working at Carrefour Wangsa Maju. overall, not bad.

all of my friends, aunty-aunty all very kind and friendly :D

today was so happy, work happily and harmony. and the new supervisor Albert was super nice, hope the next project will be under you. :D

suppose to have another job but i rejected it. the project is for a month, thinking of my exam which is 1 month later, i think i better concentrate on study since im teaching tuition as well. spend carefully should be okay :)

p/s: thanks a lot, kaki-kaki Carrefour Wangsa Maju

BA 1st day [milo]

so about today, interesting! i am lost in carrefour lol! luckily saw an aunty who is a BA also, she lead me the way, she's my angel of the day haha!

boil, mix, stir. this process repeated for million of times. the most funny part was i stared at the kettle for about 6 minutes for the water to get boiled. other than stare, seriously has nothing better to do haha!

and I ! i meet Suki there! a BA friend also, hard to believe that she was there today. and Suet Ee and Lina as well, they responsible for the merchandise.

about the sales, ok.ok lar.. since milo is already a well-known product, it's actually not a problem to promote them. i think there are over 100 pouches had been sold.

we'll see any interesting incident happen tomorrow.

p/s: i survived in a strange place, nonstrategic at all.

product training

suppose to have taken 1 photo but i totally forget about it.

well, went for product training. surprisingly only 2 BA came to here for today training, maybe the other done it yesterday =x well, as usual, she blabbered a lot, in an impolite way. this girl as in the trainer has attitude problem.

during the night, went to night market near my house with Wen. chat so damn fucking lot of things. wow, it's been a long time i never talk so much <3

p/s: everything will be fine, may God bless you.

job bombardment

after teaching my neighbors on add math chapter 2, now only i realize that it isn't that hard. form a new equation is just soooo many steps to remember but not really tough ;) hope he can understand what i've taught him.

so just get a message from Yean. is the very 1st time i teach international student. since the syllabus is around the same with us, then it should be no problem. i will put on more efforts for my better teaching result and his better exam results.

oh yeah and tomorrow i'll back to my brand ambassador office to take another job. immediately start on saturday and sunday. this project is only for 2 days, and the manager did not tell me this is 1 week project or just to replace people. but well, it's okay i'm still go for it. 

if i have a choice i'll rather concentrate for study right now but the economical status doesn't allow it. hope all of these jobs would not affects my study.

p/s: i believe hard work pays off.  

bless them

ka seng did not turn up today because his father admitted into hospital.

hopefully his father is now fine.

one of the photo with family at PD, post for fun x)

coming up next!

tadaaaaa!!

from swee mei

shirt: from Canris, nicole
black bandana: from Mr Chen

so thanks again. i try to wear the bandana and it loos so weird on me urghh.. never mind im still wearing it thank you xD

my dad is a very good counselor, he's good. his opinions basically from his experience and i don't give a doubt on it. thanks again daddy.

p/s: today's moral value: do not involve in anything that has nothing better to do with you <3

2nd celebration

this celebration conducted by captain Richie Yang and the followers Stacy, Peggy, Priya, Nicole and Canris. xD

thanks first of all.

so, about today, we met Peggy at canteen so she joined us for the celebration haha! well, we had our lunch at a restaurant at Taman Connought, 天上天。this restaurant is strongly recommented by our captain so we decided to take our lunch there.

talk about the foods, yummm xD we ordered 5 dishes, a big bowl of rice and tea, less than 100 bucks, which is affordable for all of us since we share for the lunch. fish, meats, vege, i think i will go back there with my parent next time hahaha!

next, Mr Popper's Penguins !!! this movie was so damn bloody funny as in i never stop laughing while the movie was playing, and Priya laughed so loud =.= (Shhhh in the cinema) xD oh yeah, and we watch it at leisure mall.

p/s: today's lesson: always read between the lines.

*20th of July*

epic! this is the best birthday ever i had!

*0000* - xiao wen: happy 19th birthday!!!
*0001* - xiao meng: [an A* essay] summarize: happy birthday
*0002* - pei rong: happy birthday and gain weight up to 80kg
*0004* - chuan rou: happy birthday!
*0036* - yee wen: .... dai gor zai and happy birthday~
*1349* - wen: happy birthday!!
*1350* - jing yi: rainbow, happy birthday!!
*1456* - michelle: happy birthday budak!!
*1547* - jia wei: happy birthday sai kit.......
*1641* - chia wen: happy birthday, wish you all the best!
*1906* - siew yean: QQ Kit happy birthday! xD
*2303* - song fatt: happy birthday :) [forced by me actually xD]

list of messengers x), oh ya and a caller:
*1239* - phui nying: happy birthday and bla bla ble * censored*

and: 

thanks all my facebook buddies :D

1st celebration would be with yin, yean and qiang. they came to my house to hand me the presents that chee hoe, chee chung, elaine and kai shin shared and buy for me. thanks a lot my dear friends. <3

follow up next, my mom and sister. they bought me an earring and a cake. since my grand pa just passed away so they're not celebrating for me this year :) thanks honey.

combination of gifts :)

and so in the morning, quite a number of people greet me. thanks first of all. and after the last chemistry lecture, all the people in the hall sang me a happy birthday song. oh lady fortunate, stand me auspicious! that was so damn surprising! thanks again for that surprising song!

after class, while we're waiting for the girls finish their tuition, Gordon, Ying Hao, Priya and I went to swim. an very epic scene of the day:

PRIYA FALL INTO THE POOL [she's not going to swim at the beginning]

she was so damn far more excited than 3 of us. that was sooooooo hilarious hahaha! part of the incident which made my day xD and we had a great swimming session anyway :D

so dinner time, we take dinner at a steamboat shop at Genting Klang. they starved for almost half day, and when the foods arrived, OMG they COMPETE for FOODS! >> intra-specific competition  xD and after dinner, they came out with a cake.

the most touching and out of expectation part was the cake made by one of my classmate Zarrah!!! that's so cool and WOW! she knows i dislike chocolate [told by Priya] and she replaced the topping with Nutella. and on the top of the cake has 3 scopes of ice-cream. seriously, the cake taste like heaven! the chocolate chips which can be found in the cake makes it so amazing. she should do it more often xD thanks a lot Zarrah!

a complete picture of us <3

dinner time is over, beer session! since i did not go home on that day, we could actually had a beer session. and that section was the funniest 1:

-Angel get drunk and become over excited
- Xiao Wen's face red like guan yi gor! boost of adrenaline haha!
- Gordon acted cute while taking photo, don't know why! xD
- i was blur, couldn't walk a straight line. cat walk became dog walk lol!

gan bei !!

so mainly 4 of us drink like hell, we should do it again for other's birthday :D

sleep time, i sleep at ying hao's place. thanks for letting me overnight xD i had a great time playing guitar with Ying Hao, i should learn more from you. and your piano skill killed all the girls la wei! haha!

overall, slept at around 1.30am *yawn*

p/s: my 19th birthday was amazing because you guys, thanks <3