i always feel that a-level lecturers are all very smart. i mean, they are just too smart, they know almost everything on their own subject. they're just too great overall!
salute!
will you?
on Thursday, October 27, 2011
dear blog,
27th of october, 1.33 midnight.
one more day to death line, my heart was pounding that fast which i can actually heard that lup dup sound, that obvious. i'm doing quite a lot of works these day, i mean, not really A LOT but i'm doing some.
i saw a short note in my phone. that reminded me about my AS examination. how it was? how i, i mean, all of us actually pass through that exam? that 12 days of nightmare which kill most of our brain cells. again, when i took a look on my A2 examination time table, it's only 5 days which we actually have papers to sit for, just the time interval is incredibly long. but think about it, in fact it's a good thing doen't it?
just few more days, the exam will end. when it ends, everything will back to normal. i miss my fellow friends, who i always go hang out with. the flashback about the moments we fool around were actually so unforgettable, and i felt i missed out so bloody much of things. i miss you fools, i mean my lovely friends.
a level, i scarificed uncountable things for you, and so, i hope for my return. will you?
27th of october, 1.33 midnight.
one more day to death line, my heart was pounding that fast which i can actually heard that lup dup sound, that obvious. i'm doing quite a lot of works these day, i mean, not really A LOT but i'm doing some.
i saw a short note in my phone. that reminded me about my AS examination. how it was? how i, i mean, all of us actually pass through that exam? that 12 days of nightmare which kill most of our brain cells. again, when i took a look on my A2 examination time table, it's only 5 days which we actually have papers to sit for, just the time interval is incredibly long. but think about it, in fact it's a good thing doen't it?
just few more days, the exam will end. when it ends, everything will back to normal. i miss my fellow friends, who i always go hang out with. the flashback about the moments we fool around were actually so unforgettable, and i felt i missed out so bloody much of things. i miss you fools, i mean my lovely friends.
a level, i scarificed uncountable things for you, and so, i hope for my return. will you?
westlife
on Friday, October 21, 2011
i opened one of my folder in my computer. ''Westlife''. there are full with their songs, all were old songs. i listened to it one by one, until i finish the whole list.
all the songs made me think of my childhood. Westlife boy band was my childhood band, the first english song i listen to was sang by Westlife, if i let you go. that made me, so touched. and then, i google up them and try to get myself into their current affairs.
and guess what, they are going to leave the stage, the music stage, after they publish their last album soon on November 26 2011, and after 14 years this band had been established. that is a really sad news for me. i really like them a lot, my childhood is all about them. i missed their concert last few weeks ago due to exam. i guess i have no chance anymore to go to their concert. =(
anyway, good luck. not only me, fans around the whole world will be by your side and miss you, all the best yo you guys!
all the songs made me think of my childhood. Westlife boy band was my childhood band, the first english song i listen to was sang by Westlife, if i let you go. that made me, so touched. and then, i google up them and try to get myself into their current affairs.
and guess what, they are going to leave the stage, the music stage, after they publish their last album soon on November 26 2011, and after 14 years this band had been established. that is a really sad news for me. i really like them a lot, my childhood is all about them. i missed their concert last few weeks ago due to exam. i guess i have no chance anymore to go to their concert. =(
anyway, good luck. not only me, fans around the whole world will be by your side and miss you, all the best yo you guys!
do you know?
on Tuesday, October 18, 2011
suppose to be a really delighting day when right after i came back from college HE ruined everything.
early in the morning i was asked to be presented in bio practical class for the cake cutting ceremony specially for ms Vicky who is going to leave our college, as well as us and all other lecturers to pursue her PhD, that was actually a good thing, wish you all the best and may God bless you! thanks for your guiding and helped us to shoot for the moon. fine, maybe not so accurate, but at least among the stars.
anyway, thanks for everything and we'll miss you :)
and the rest of my day, as usual. and at 5 o'clock, when we're going to head to lrt station, suddenly there's a heavy downpour. when i reached the back gate of college with 2 of them ka seng and priya, i stopped walking cuz i don't want to get wet, and the 2 bastards dragged me out and forced me run in the rain with them, shit that was so... EPIC! THEY DRAGGED ME OUT INTO THE RAIN!! so, my whole body got wet, and i don't see the points from resisting myself not to walk in the rain, prevent myself from being getting wet, urgh, they turned my world all up side down, but, however, i kind of like it. i've never been that crazy before. and the moment we reached for ka seng's car, the rain stops. and the last sentence i heard from him, "fuck you, you stop raining only by now!", 2 of us got amused.
i reckon if i caught a cold, i'll make their chin swell!
so, finally, now i come to the main part. at first, when i helping my mom to return some kitchen stuffs back to my neighbor who lives few houses away from us, i'm kind of happy cuz' i saw an old friend. last few days i saw him walking on pedestrain on his own and me, myself thinking how's he doing. so now, i felt that i'm too enthusiastic about people's matter, he's doing really good i guess.
i walked to him where the place he parked his car. at first i'm really very happy, i thought i can chit chat with him about his current life but, well, that not really going that well. from what i see, i din't see he's packing his things a little faster, or call me to wait for him for maybe just a moment, and he just left me waiting at the back. and he even lighted up a cigarrette and take his own sweet time.
that's the first thing that challeged my patience. and after that, i tried to ask him about his current affairs, or his life, he not really entertain me. and by the 2nd time i asked him when he starts smoking, and he just reply me in i feel that is kind of a rude way. after that, he move his head a little higher and exhaled the unhealthy cigarette smokes. i got offended, cuz' i felt that he's trying to show me something. i don't know whether my nervous system got stuck or what, i seriously got pissed off.
i have no idea whether i'm too sensitive or he's not in a good mood that moment, but IF he does has a thoughts really want to show me how MAN he is, or how MATURED he looked right now with the CIGARETTE on his hand and showing me that irritating movements, i'll just say you really have a small brain, that's it.
i'm not kidding i got paused for few seconds on thinking how to reply him to continue the conversation and so the atmosphere wouldn't become that awkward, does he ever think how embarrass people would be? even when i get back into my house, i'm thinking myself, "do i say anything wrongly and i spoil his mood?", maybe i do but so far i don't see any of it yet.
i'm a little bit sad how could he became like that. i don't see a point doing this to your friend who know you for at least 3 years, and did nothing bad on you for the last few months, or maybe up to a year. is there anything happened on you, or i think too much? anyway, take care my friend. i don't show any offends to you by writing this blog post, but i just need a place to... you know, i actually don't mean that. perhaps you think that is all bullshit, but, for me, it's not.
i used to give people advice, and i fail myself.
p/s: if i hurt you, i'm sorry.
early in the morning i was asked to be presented in bio practical class for the cake cutting ceremony specially for ms Vicky who is going to leave our college, as well as us and all other lecturers to pursue her PhD, that was actually a good thing, wish you all the best and may God bless you! thanks for your guiding and helped us to shoot for the moon. fine, maybe not so accurate, but at least among the stars.
anyway, thanks for everything and we'll miss you :)
and the rest of my day, as usual. and at 5 o'clock, when we're going to head to lrt station, suddenly there's a heavy downpour. when i reached the back gate of college with 2 of them ka seng and priya, i stopped walking cuz i don't want to get wet, and the 2 bastards dragged me out and forced me run in the rain with them, shit that was so... EPIC! THEY DRAGGED ME OUT INTO THE RAIN!! so, my whole body got wet, and i don't see the points from resisting myself not to walk in the rain, prevent myself from being getting wet, urgh, they turned my world all up side down, but, however, i kind of like it. i've never been that crazy before. and the moment we reached for ka seng's car, the rain stops. and the last sentence i heard from him, "fuck you, you stop raining only by now!", 2 of us got amused.
i reckon if i caught a cold, i'll make their chin swell!
so, finally, now i come to the main part. at first, when i helping my mom to return some kitchen stuffs back to my neighbor who lives few houses away from us, i'm kind of happy cuz' i saw an old friend. last few days i saw him walking on pedestrain on his own and me, myself thinking how's he doing. so now, i felt that i'm too enthusiastic about people's matter, he's doing really good i guess.
i walked to him where the place he parked his car. at first i'm really very happy, i thought i can chit chat with him about his current life but, well, that not really going that well. from what i see, i din't see he's packing his things a little faster, or call me to wait for him for maybe just a moment, and he just left me waiting at the back. and he even lighted up a cigarrette and take his own sweet time.
that's the first thing that challeged my patience. and after that, i tried to ask him about his current affairs, or his life, he not really entertain me. and by the 2nd time i asked him when he starts smoking, and he just reply me in i feel that is kind of a rude way. after that, he move his head a little higher and exhaled the unhealthy cigarette smokes. i got offended, cuz' i felt that he's trying to show me something. i don't know whether my nervous system got stuck or what, i seriously got pissed off.
i have no idea whether i'm too sensitive or he's not in a good mood that moment, but IF he does has a thoughts really want to show me how MAN he is, or how MATURED he looked right now with the CIGARETTE on his hand and showing me that irritating movements, i'll just say you really have a small brain, that's it.
i'm not kidding i got paused for few seconds on thinking how to reply him to continue the conversation and so the atmosphere wouldn't become that awkward, does he ever think how embarrass people would be? even when i get back into my house, i'm thinking myself, "do i say anything wrongly and i spoil his mood?", maybe i do but so far i don't see any of it yet.
i'm a little bit sad how could he became like that. i don't see a point doing this to your friend who know you for at least 3 years, and did nothing bad on you for the last few months, or maybe up to a year. is there anything happened on you, or i think too much? anyway, take care my friend. i don't show any offends to you by writing this blog post, but i just need a place to... you know, i actually don't mean that. perhaps you think that is all bullshit, but, for me, it's not.
i used to give people advice, and i fail myself.
p/s: if i hurt you, i'm sorry.
we can
on Sunday, October 16, 2011
printed out my exam timetable and looking at it, the time was arranged in quite an organize way. we'll get extra time to study while waiting the next exam coming up.
the only headache case is our first day, 2 critical subjects come at once. hectic, hectic.
all of us can do it. yeah, we can.
the only headache case is our first day, 2 critical subjects come at once. hectic, hectic.
all of us can do it. yeah, we can.
friday, no difference
on Friday, October 14, 2011
so, TGI Friday! but anyway, it's still the same for me, and maybe everyone, all the a level exam candidates, everyone is studying. so my lunch today was taken in burger king with all the girlssss tadaaa canris, nicole and priya! ka seng didn't join us anyway today but still, kind of suprise he actually came to today's lectures.
again, few more days, few more weeks! just a little bit more and i'm free!!! today's hardworks will make my futures!!
p/s: canris: when you find you're tired, do not eat fast foods!
again, few more days, few more weeks! just a little bit more and i'm free!!! today's hardworks will make my futures!!
p/s: canris: when you find you're tired, do not eat fast foods!
madness
on Thursday, October 13, 2011
these days were so tiring. almost everyday i got to stay back at college with my friends and study like mad. i tried very best to convice myself,saying that there's few more days to go, 2 weeks more to reach deathline and roughly 1 more month to end the most stupid exam ever in the world. but what can i do, i need this cert! i need it for my university, for godsake!
urgh stupid Priya is just beside me and i am being annoyed by her right now, can' even construct a proper sentence with all the noices made by her, urghhhh!!
good day everyone!
p/s: except Priya. *shhh....*
urgh stupid Priya is just beside me and i am being annoyed by her right now, can' even construct a proper sentence with all the noices made by her, urghhhh!!
good day everyone!
p/s: except Priya. *shhh....*
dedicated to: Steven
on Tuesday, October 11, 2011
this morning is too much, i felt annoyed by him but now i feel a little, guilty. yeah maybe he's out of control but he isn't want to do that. so here i apologize, and may God bless you.
good luck in your undertakings.
day in Isetan and Harrods
on Monday, October 10, 2011
overdrives brain isn't good for health, any of us, working or studying, that's killing. that's a brand new excuse for me to revision. excuse, that's the reason for it: i went to klcc to get some clothes since there's Isetan sale. and, people buying things like they ever do. stack and stack of clothes, tops, pants, shoes, belts, socks, inner garments.. and look at their receipt, that's long and the figures at the bottom, that might freak you out.
well, story got to come back to me. i went there with one of my bestie and she's a good shopper indeed. and meanwhile, we took rest at Harrods. that was really cool, i can't really believe i'm actually there. and for this, i honored her a good eater as well. expensive, but that's a good experience anyway. we stay alive to try out various kind of things, but not drugs. *chuckling*
p/s: as life moves on, go with what it leads you.
well, story got to come back to me. i went there with one of my bestie and she's a good shopper indeed. and meanwhile, we took rest at Harrods. that was really cool, i can't really believe i'm actually there. and for this, i honored her a good eater as well. expensive, but that's a good experience anyway. we stay alive to try out various kind of things, but not drugs. *chuckling*
p/s: as life moves on, go with what it leads you.
i'm nuts
on Sunday, October 9, 2011
ops someone making a post today again. but well, i don't really care about this but the main thing is i really missed this keyboard. urgh Jesus Christ when is the exam going to finish, one and half month going to the end i can't stand it anymore. i can't stand any second more to get out from the prison, free from being a prisoner for over one year and just, breath some fresh air. i just need those really fresh air fill my nostrils.
for christsake, bless me with my f*king exams. i guess i'm nuts.
p/s: ops ops something get really wrong here, no vulgar anymore :) *no promise*
for christsake, bless me with my f*king exams. i guess i'm nuts.
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p/s: ops ops something get really wrong here, no vulgar anymore :) *no promise*
零分
on Friday, October 7, 2011
我对我自己说过，在我完成我的考试之前，我是不会上线。但是，今天我违反了我自己定下的规则。
我今天真的满伤心。并不是因为我自己，不是因为考试，不是因为朋友，是因为我觉得我自己一点都不懂得体谅，不懂得了解别人的心情，不懂得孝顺，更不懂得做别人儿子。
这一阵子一连串发生的，不能说很好，也不能说不好，算是平平淡淡，无风无浪。学院因考试而变得平静，朋友之间的矛盾因时间慢慢冲淡，也开始想不起来因为什么而闹得奇怪。想起来起好像与我无关，干什么去做伟人。然后又给自己造了个借口，因为想要懂得保护自己。回想上个星期六的晚上，一个值得纪念的晚上，朋友的生日给了我一个和老朋友们团聚的日子。老实说，真的很开心，和他们在一块是很自然、很轻快的事。大家认识都快七年了，不说一百巴仙了解，也有八十吧？值得开心的，我还有他们在我身边。大家不知道未来的事，现在开心这就行啦！
音乐课停止了，家教也停止了，因为考试越来越逼近，剩下的时间不多，压力开始渐渐加重，应该把手头上不关考试的东西搁在一旁。不料，麻烦找上了我。今天下午，妈的情绪崩溃，扛了很久的压力一瞬间引爆。事情起因于四月那时候，以为问题已经解决，其实并没有，而且还带到现在，我很是意外。这件事情闹得差点家变，不料现在又有十尺高的大浪迎面盖来，而且还是同一个大浪。
当时屋内只有我和她，她对我说了一些发生在公公去世后的那几天，也就是她守孝的那几个晚上，她是多么的害怕和无助。有先生好像没先生，有孩子好像没孩子。我只能说，我当时只会想着自己，只会害怕自己受伤害，而不起理会或是去体谅别人的心情。我真的很讨厌我自己，为什么我会那么不成熟？年龄将近二十的我还学不会体恤别人，在那种时候为什么我还能抱怨些什么？为什么还要一位守孝的孩子体谅我？为什么我会那么的不长进？那种情况下因该是我来安慰她，支持她，守在她身旁，让她还有一个依靠，让她知道还有人在她身旁，叫她安心。我连这一点都不明白，做不到，我很失败。身为一个儿子，分数已经处于零下部分。
我看着她的眼泪一直这样流，我的心真得很酸，原来我跟一个十岁余的黄毛小子没什么两样。一个人，身为一个人的儿子还是女儿，在能力范围之内，尽力量别让这些事情发生，你会很难过。过去的日子，我错过了体恤她的机会，在未来的日子，我不会从蹈覆辙，学会关心和谅解她，尽能力让她我们还在关心她，让她知道她不是一个人，她永远都不会是一个人。
我今天真的满伤心。并不是因为我自己，不是因为考试，不是因为朋友，是因为我觉得我自己一点都不懂得体谅，不懂得了解别人的心情，不懂得孝顺，更不懂得做别人儿子。
这一阵子一连串发生的，不能说很好，也不能说不好，算是平平淡淡，无风无浪。学院因考试而变得平静，朋友之间的矛盾因时间慢慢冲淡，也开始想不起来因为什么而闹得奇怪。想起来起好像与我无关，干什么去做伟人。然后又给自己造了个借口，因为想要懂得保护自己。回想上个星期六的晚上，一个值得纪念的晚上，朋友的生日给了我一个和老朋友们团聚的日子。老实说，真的很开心，和他们在一块是很自然、很轻快的事。大家认识都快七年了，不说一百巴仙了解，也有八十吧？值得开心的，我还有他们在我身边。大家不知道未来的事，现在开心这就行啦！
音乐课停止了，家教也停止了，因为考试越来越逼近，剩下的时间不多，压力开始渐渐加重，应该把手头上不关考试的东西搁在一旁。不料，麻烦找上了我。今天下午，妈的情绪崩溃，扛了很久的压力一瞬间引爆。事情起因于四月那时候，以为问题已经解决，其实并没有，而且还带到现在，我很是意外。这件事情闹得差点家变，不料现在又有十尺高的大浪迎面盖来，而且还是同一个大浪。
当时屋内只有我和她，她对我说了一些发生在公公去世后的那几天，也就是她守孝的那几个晚上，她是多么的害怕和无助。有先生好像没先生，有孩子好像没孩子。我只能说，我当时只会想着自己，只会害怕自己受伤害，而不起理会或是去体谅别人的心情。我真的很讨厌我自己，为什么我会那么不成熟？年龄将近二十的我还学不会体恤别人，在那种时候为什么我还能抱怨些什么？为什么还要一位守孝的孩子体谅我？为什么我会那么的不长进？那种情况下因该是我来安慰她，支持她，守在她身旁，让她还有一个依靠，让她知道还有人在她身旁，叫她安心。我连这一点都不明白，做不到，我很失败。身为一个儿子，分数已经处于零下部分。
我看着她的眼泪一直这样流，我的心真得很酸，原来我跟一个十岁余的黄毛小子没什么两样。一个人，身为一个人的儿子还是女儿，在能力范围之内，尽力量别让这些事情发生，你会很难过。过去的日子，我错过了体恤她的机会，在未来的日子，我不会从蹈覆辙，学会关心和谅解她，尽能力让她我们还在关心她，让她知道她不是一个人，她永远都不会是一个人。
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