Epiphany...?

Nobody was home this afternoon. My parents went out, my sister went out too, and it was only me at home. So i decided to watch a movie at the cinema. Alone. I went into the hall after i got my lunch at Burger King. 

Alice Through The Looking Glass. It was splendid. I'm pretty sure nobody liked spoilers so i'm not gonna talk much about it but the main reason i'm writing this post is because this film reminded me something. Remember in the last post i said i got an interview in Peneng? Yea, it's on this coming Friday. A little nervous that's completely normal. A lot of bad things happened in Peneng. Every time when i was in Peneng. It must be a curse. That was what i used to think. It was not healthy i know that. Can't help it. Therefore, i have always told people that i hated Peneng. I reminded me of bad memories which i hoped to forget forever. And now i got a job interview there, which i hope it works out. How funny isn't it? Then, while i was watching Alice, Time said 'You can't changed the past no matter how hard you try, you can't alter it. But you will learn something out of it.' Those words. How splendid wasn't it? It's quite hard to get through it don't you think? 

I got a conclusion finally. I didn't hate Peneng, i'm fear of Peneng. I'm afraid that the same bad things will happen again. I went to Peneng... twice? Thrice? Every visit there crushed me. I'm fear of it. But Time taught me to face my fear because what lies beyond fear is something beautiful. Something good is waiting ahead. Don't be afraid of the past, don't hate the past. It teaches you and you learn from it. Or learning something you don't know too. Therefore, dear me, be calm and have faith. There are beautiful days ahead. Pull up your big boy pants and be brave. For you are the only one capable of choosing the life you longed for. At the mean time, work hard and be patient. 

p/s: I got myself little something. That caption makes me smile.

Finally here, building my career

I didn't realize that i didn't write for a month. The past month had been both good and bad to me. Remember that day when i enrolled into physical therapy school it was already 4 years ago. I remember i told myself that 'Get the fucking cert and get the hell out of there'. Well, it's almost time.. and i'm panicking because i'm really a grown man. I should be happy and looking forward to the future... right? But why do i have so many butterflies in my stomach?

I sent tans of resumes out there and hope one of the hospitals abroad will take me in. Well, so far no news from any of them. I sent to local hospitals too and well, no news as well. I've been on my own for almost 6 months now and once i graduated i need a job almost immediately. I'm nervous. I'm afraid. Please tell me it's normal. I went to an interview last Monday. It was a studio, a pilate studio. Well, you know, no much for physical therapy and more like a instructor. I'm not ready to let go of the knowledge i've taken so much effort to gain. The pay was okay, it's in KL where i live, i should be happy and relief that i have a job isn't it? Yes, they wanted to hire me but you know what, 2 years contract and something was wrong. My instict kept telling me something was wrong but i don't know what exactly. The employer called me to mail him after i think about it. I didn't reply him. Of all, like Eddy said, this job just grants me a financial security.

I went to see my mentor once i was done with the interview. She offered quite a bit of advice and she got me another interview. It is in Peneng. I'm heading over next week. I don't know what is gonna happen but i will give it a shot. It is a hospital setting. My mentor told me i need a few years of hospital experience to carry me abroad, which is my intention all these years. She remembered. And it felt different from the interview i went last Monday. It was different. The feeling. This... feels right. If the interview went well, i may have a lot of arrangements to do.

I'm finally here at this stage. What i really hope is that i can reach my goal soon and never forget it. Everything will be alright. May God bless the lost child the right path.

p/s: Finally changed a new phone. So much better using the new one.