thing that tighten my heart

Suddenly feels like writing this, a story of mine.

I was once very close to this guy. He's a very nice guy indeed and a very good friend too.

We always go play, talk, and laugh together. Seriously, I miss that moment. But one day, he seldom talk to us, mix us and sometimes I felt like he doesn't even wanna talk to me. What happened? I have no idea. I always thought I have a bunch of nice classmates but I think I'm too naive to think about that. I don't even know what I did till some of them jealous hate me so much. I'm actually very sincere to treat you as friend. Is it because I'm too straight-forward or what? I never say bad things about you or anyone else seriously. I'm actually quite miss the way you touch my head. Only you did that to me. I miss you my friend. Please don't put a barrier between you and us. We never want you to choose a side but you did it yourself. We respect your decision and we never mad at you. I hope you will know that we very miss you like A LOT!

I miss you my friend. very much.

Really hope you will see this.

This is written sincerely

from my heart.

i'm starting my post with a short post made by one girl, who once was my college friend until the day we stop talking. it always tighten my heart whenever i read this post, i don't know what should i say. yes indeed i chose a side. instead of them i chose ka seng, which last time i used to think i was correct, but see what happen now, i doubting myself. but for one thing that never change, to Gordon it's hard for me to get rid of his past, the things he had done. for a certain extend i trusted ka seng, that was for sure.

but never mind. things had happened and never turn back, even though one day they said it's fine but there is always a scar left one the skin on every cut, i understand that. time heals wound, let time wash away our pain, my grief.

so today i watched another Thai movie again- ''Frienship''. 

i know... Mario again haha! i think that 3 movies
i had watched were his best for the mean time.

this film was talking about a love story, again, when they're studying. the only difference between ''the little crazy thing called love'' and ''friendship'' was one was grew up happily while the other grew up in grief. ahhh i don't know what i'm trying to say, go and watch yourself you'll find something.

for a thing which never change was the ending, it's so heart breaking when his girl dies. feel so bad when i thought of myself, i don't own such a love story on my own. really, i want to try falling in love, i want to know how is the feeling which never exist in my life until 20 year-old. 

the thirst, i'm getting thirstier...