so in the office, today ms lee did not come in, even poh chu, she didn't come in as well, so we're all quite relax and free today. wish all the friday would be such relaxing haihh. since yesterday our office hot topic was about SEX! could you believe that they actually neglected my existence and talk all about those embarrassing stuffs and woman stuffs!! the most funny part was cm expressing her 'sex life' to all of us, her exaggerating expression making all of us laugh non-stop, she successfully made a tearing-laughter, super inspiring!
i'm just so happy and appreciate and thankful that i am actually working right now here and having tan of fun with all my colleagues- Jasmine, cm, Yen. they're amazing!
and yesterday i met mr frank on the train, and i was so concentrating on reading an article printed in office- 'you're Christian, unless your're a gay'. in fact, this was a great article and on that web page, there were a lot of feedbacks from readers, indeed it's really a great article, just feeling a little happy that someone stand out for justice. love is fair, it doesn't choose people, but people were so selfish to spare their love to someone different, like handicap, gay, race, job and things like that. serious speaking, that's very true, i totally supported him, and million thanks to him for spending his time on writing such awesome article for all of us to share, share it to all our friends, around the world. you're great!
oh, by the way, i met mr frank and i was so happy. just that, WOW, we met in a train in the right time, the right box among all the boxes, that's... i don't know, just feel wonderful. and then, our trip to Port Dickson, after Hui Wen done booking our room, hopefully all go smoothly, i'm pretty sure we'll have a great time there! so our 'taking-off' day is on 20th April, 2012, Friday!! yay, i just can't wait for that any longer! may God bless us!
and tonight i went out with whole bunch of my besties for a small little reunion, that's so GOOD! it's hard for me to describe it in detail, it's just so warm. for quite some time i never feel that way, ever since 'Riche-Priya incident', for a moment i felt so upset and tired with this friendship thinggie, i even think that's bullshit, rubbish! and now i know i was wrong, it's different, they're totally different with my besties. besties are amazing, caring standing by your side when you need them to protect, comforts you. they would just do it automatically.
look, in our reunion, Ivy is there, Shin, Chee Chung, Bosco, Senese, Elaine and me Carlisle, we were sitting all together. something that i have to admit is Ivy has Shin by her side whenever she needs her, Chee Chung has Bosco, Senese has Elaine. see they're all in pair and obviously anything bad happened on them, they'll first to know the details of each other, and i'm the odd number, a little bit being left-out. i know that's not true, but see how they always are. Bosco willing to leave me alone in KLCC for Chee Chung, Elaine always go for concert, shopping with Senese, they're like partner, and Ivy, apparently anything happens Shin will by her side listening to her, that's a truth.
but, how about me? do i have anyone that i can give my heart to? anyone that can call me out, ask me 'how have you been lately? you look kinda bad... what happen?', sort of that. in that group, the one that i didn't mention was Tina. she's kinda close to me, maybe cuz' she's there since i was in primary school. to be specific, we know each other since standard 1, how awesome right. but to be frank also, i don't know her so well anyway, just that the time we know each other is extremely long, till now is around 13 years. that's outstanding don't you think so.
so, all the time they think we're close together, exist to be in a pair of best friend. but maybe our friendship did not go such deep as them who i just mentioned above. in a way i feel myself is quite pathetic. i know when i tell this to my friends they will say 'you're a silly boy, that's no true.' and start consoling me, thanks so much i guess for now i need a hug from them, i will be so glad they could give me one, EACH OF THEM! they're irreplaceable, they're important to me, for them, i really see no reason to hold grudges for a long time, cuz' whenever i saw them, i saw spring, i heard birds humming into melody, i can feel the wind kissing me on my face, they're energy pill for me, one of the reason to keep me moving on. it's my best thing to have them by my side since young, sincerely from the core of my heart, I LOVE YOU GUYS! I WOULD HAVE JUST SHOUT OUT LOUD! guys, you're amazing, you guys made me a better person. deep down inside friendship, i saw love.
mr frank of course, you're my real best friend. you have no idea how delighting you made me, i never know that you're such important too to me, how enjoying to chat with you even you're such a silent animal LOL. do you know last time you rarely speak, no, you have no words. and slowly until now, i can heard your sound finally, sometime protest, and that was great! you're improving! i don't know whether it's what i made you to be or you really turning better, but anyway that's not important, as long as you feel good and happy, that's the reason i'm happy for you.
i don't know why when i saw zi jie i would just easily blurt something out, even with my bunch of besties i won't do that, something just not right. but with him, that all go automatically without feeling weary. someone who sometime has no words, that's bizarre i can stay alive with somebody like that. maybe that's what we call faith, an invisible magic powder scattered around me and him. you hope everything good on him, his health, future, things like that, whatever, just, anything, i hope i'll be the first of your friend to know that, i really hope that. sometime for something small, i can be sensitive, SOMETIME. like how other best friend did, they always know your current status, what's bothering you, what you're on lately, what are you doing, i'm sure that's normal right, all best friends wish that.
i just hope one day, our friendship can develop to that stage. of course i'm already were, just you, i'm waiting you ready for that, waiting your development. hopefully one day, we'll be like how Chee Chung and Bosco are, how Senese and Elaine are, and how Ivy and Shin are. that's my wish. wish to have a friendship like that, the one that you can rely on when you feel weary, collapse, sad. and first one to share your happiness, that would be amazing. i know one day, we will be like that. i can see the shadow coming near, although far from my sight, i know it's him, i'll wait you to catch me up, take your time, by time you reach mi side:
WE WILL BE REALLY A BEST FRIEND!
