haven- it gives the hint

this is something about today.. it's a hard day, suppose to be..

for the 1st time im setting this to 'people i choose', and i know, that's my final decision, i will never expose too much to people..

today suppose to be a delighting day. it's quite successful on my interview, i mean, university interview, i can see from those lecturer's faces, they're pleased. and the university im referring is UTAR, but after that old fcking stupid folk offended us, so that's it, and i don't think that is a very good university also, so, no harm done.

and straight after that interview, my mom and i went to MAHSA university college to apply, to study of course.. hehe, the point to go for UTAR's interview right. the fees is expensive, ptptn isn't fully covered, 60k out of 80k only, but my father gave me the confident, so, i showed him i have the determination to study physiotherapy, i can do it!! i will do what ever i know, i promise i won't let you down!

and then at night, i go out for a drink with Priya and the moronic yang ka seng, and at the end he really pissed me off.. the only reason i went out to meet them up is only one, to talk about our problem. but he doesn't seem like care about it, even a little. at the middle he just being so ignorant!

'that chick is hot!'

what the hell? i was talking something serious and he is acting so ignorant! what the fcking wrong with him, i seriously got pissed. there's the other one in the middle of the conversation..

'do you guys want to change table?'

fuck you! i don't know why, he making me so angry, what the hell is wrong with you!? and the end, the whole talk turn out to be my fault, that made me feel really bad... i am very upset, why are both of you, priya and ka seng making the whole thing is my fault? to be frank don't you guys have some responsibilities as well!! i hate this!

by time i reach home, after shower, i feel a lot calmer, i know now i'm in a haven, i feel secure, i feel safe.. and my mother and sister console me for the love of God.. now i know, home is my only haven, friend is not a permanent thing, they change as time go on, no one can be trusted, only family, and i thoroughly trusted them, from the core of my heart, thank you so much.. now i know what should i do..

i wish to move out of this horrible place, soon im moving to pj, which means i no need to see their fucking faces anymore.. which is a very good thing, thank God.. this meet up isn't a waste of time, now i know, entirely, how they behaving, especially ka seng, he is cunny, the one who backstabbing me, he is good.. i know what should i do.. thank for letting me know..

by time i let it go doesn't mean that i forgive you, i just don't want to let something so minor and unimportant to block my way for moving on, that's bloody unnecessary, get out of my life sucker, for god's sake!

now you both, were in my abandoned store room in my heart, never open the door anymore.. once i put it in, that'll be the end, you guys made it that way...