a chat with ying hao

there's a lot of things to talk about, whenever i come to late in night, blogging, i forgot 3/4 of them ==

anyway, this morning at lrt i saw a pair of, i don't know they're a pair of couple, yeah both of them are male, gay couple, i saw them acting quite intimate, not for once, for quite some times actually. maybe i was thinking too much and too sensitive, but it seems real LOL

i think i gone nuts with that kind of breathless, complicated relationship.

oh yeah, and yen didn't come to work today, menstrual pain, gratitude boosted to my brain 'luckily im a guy' LOL that's true, at least i don't need to suffer a continuous monthly pain. and i saw Ms Lee sometime is kind of, erm, cute. i know that sounds weird but when you see her weary and anxious face you will have some kind of 'give a hand' feeling.

that is all begin from a file named teo fong loo, after i asked Jasmine about this file's problem then finally i understood why Ms Lee so anxious about this, a complicated property agent who gave a lot of stupid problems to us previously.

and at the night, ying hao talked to me about architecture thinggy. i think most of the time right we're affected by people. who you want to be in the future always altered by somebody, that sounds like not your choice anymore, seriously, they like to influence people. but you know, when you know what you want to be and you're so sure that you like it and you'll do it the best as you can, all the problems ain't a problem anymore, it's you goona make the future, not us, not them, you decide who you want to be.

ying hao, maybe we have a faith, you're one of the friend i care about, i really hope to see you with a successful and confident smile in the future, holding rolls and rolls of blue print in your hand, explaining desperately to me how you goona build it and describe how it works, in a 5 star dining place, and finally come out with a sentence:

'did i somehow bored you?', he grinned with an anxious face.

and i'll say:

'no, absolutely not, i know you're doing a great job, and i'm happy for you.' i shoke my hand and explained genuinely.

you'll do great, and i'll do great, we all will be great in the future, let's work hard now for a better future!