I'm so overwhelmed by my own feelings

I have been staying in Peneng officially for 4 months now and i have something so say. The past 4 months there were ups and downs and i think the ups are more than downs, and i feel so emotional, a good one, for all the good things that happened to me.

First, when i first moved in i was anxious. First, I was far away from home and i know this is gonna be away for a long time, plus this is my first time moving far away, all on my own, until i met my housemates. They were unbelievably kind. Rachel, Suellen, Qi, Ting and Hui Fang, my life here becomes happier and much better with them. We had a lot of fun together. Making dumplings, celebrating festivals etc.

Rach brought me to places where i can get cheap and authentic alcohols and exchanging her experiences as a PT for the past 5 years. I cannot be more thankful for that. Qi is a good cook, good speaker, so is she a good listener. She is a speech therapist and she speaks good mandarin, i find my mandarin speaking improves after moving in. She's friendly and easy to get along with. She just moved out and going to Queensland to further her study, i hope things work out well for her. Suellen. She did things that i will never do like not even thinking about it. She has the best social skill among all of us. She did couch-surfing for bagpackers, a discipline recyclist, and a very environmental friendly person where she grow her own fertilizers using our daily organic wastes. Honestly at first i wasn't that use to it but i tried to understand her needs and did it anyway, well, it wasn't that bad to do things that you have never thought doing. You have no idea how much my mind has broaden after i had moved out. And Hui Fang, she is a pharmacist, she has high expectation and great responsibility. Also, she gets depressed very easily. We are almost her counselors when she obviously needed one. Because of them, i have made so many new friends; basically their friends. It was amazing.

My family came to visit last weekend. It took me by surprise. They just called and informed that they are coming without prior notice. Just like that. I spent my whole evening cleaning my room after i got back from work. That's a bachelor room so it's a little messy i have to admit! And i kinda know why they came to visit. My dad drove my truck here and exchange my lousy old car. He wanted me to use that truck instead. I left it at home because i know i won't be able to afford the expenses and i planned to get it back when i have my financial rolled smooth. And he paid the road tax and insurance for me and drove it up all the way from home. I feel... emotional. I'm happy i get to use my truck now but i'm also embarrassed that my dad still is paying for my stuff. My dad has worked his whole life providing the family and he never stopped. I brought him to Straits Quay and he loved it there. I wanted to get him a unit and i know it's going to be difficult. I will try. For whatever he had done for me i wanted to pay him back the most i can. And my mom. And my sister. I love them too much. Too much. I'm 25 and i have so many things to do and i don't know how.

Work is work. It's the same. I have been learning consistently and i intend to learn more in the coming days. Again, i have nothing to complain other than its pay. But well, when i talked to my dad when he came to visit, our conversation was good. He told me to be patient and learn as i walk along the way because i think he saw that i wanted things to happen quickly when he knows it's impossible. I cherish my job. I do. When i see them recovering well i don't show my happiness or whatever but i just know that i'm doing the right and the best thing. I want to make money out of my profession and never compromised my values. But i don't know how. And my dad says again, 'be patient'. That morning when they left my place before sunrise my mom kissed me goodbye. When i got back to my room i smelled her perfume, the scent was still around. When i got back from work, the scent still there and i started to miss her. There i know... i love them very much. You have no idea how magical distance works between family members. It heals and enhances our connection. Our relationship just feels stronger.

I'm not able to sleep now because i am overwhelmed by my own feelings. The appreciation i have for everything up until now. 过去的那个星期我过得非常感动，谢谢你们。