My grandma left less than 6 months of good health. When my mom broke the news to me my heart sunk. My dad's mom wasn't feeling that great either so they don't really have the mood to do anything, i don't blame them. Neither do i. 21st is my last paper of the sem, celebration a day before my paper didn't make me comfortable. It's the feeling of a paper to sit for and you're still having fun. Not good. Just feeling not good. So, you know, i don't have to speak much.
Anyway, my friends celebrated it humbly, simplicity at its best. We went Dragon-i for dinner and they said it was on them. That made me feel loved. Other than that, Yean went all the way to Damansara to get a cake she felt is nice for me as my birthday cake. It was indeed wonderful. And Yin called from Singapore to wish my, that, i feel even much loved.
Deborah, CCC's girlfriend, she prepared me a present. Although this time was the 2nd time we met and she prepared me one, that's great, that feels wonderful. Plus, she came all the way from Paramount to Ampang, got Yean to pick her up at the LRT station, to just attend the dinner. That was a plus. Thank you very much. I was very much loved.
But, before the dinner, which means earlier in the day, i got calls and texts from some friends that still remember my birthday. I hid my birth date on fb so i received no wishes. What are those wishes really meant? It meant nothing. It was just a manner to drop you a wish on your wall, on your birthday, that's all. Pathetic.
Bavita bought me a Captain America painting and it was wonderful. She remembered what i said when me, myself forgot. Tammy, Eddy and Jason wished me via texts and we are going out for celebration after our last paper. Chu Ting, Josephine, Jia Yin and Siew Mee called me a few minutes before 21st arrived. They sang me a birthday song through phone. I can hear from the background, probably in the resting area. It felt so so loved, you know? I didn't expect any of them to remember, but they did.
All my college friends did. What about the friend i claimed my best friend, she did not message whatsoever, nothing. I don't know what happened at Tasmania but it was a Sunday and yet... It's okay i didn't have much left of her. Whatsoever. Whatever. Just so you know, something came up between us.
Frank remembered. He sent me a text via facebook message. He wrote "happy birthday ~ 20/7 is a day that i will never forget in my life...have a blast." I don't know how should i feel about it. But i said thanks. Even he remembered. And i did appreciate very much.
Swee Mei kinda broke off from our group because of some problems and so, she commented on one of my facebook birthday post and said she'll always be there for me, things to be said to a birthday person, you know? It was great to hear from her it has been ages. I planned to ask about her and she dropped a comment. It felt great. I really hope she's doing fine at Singapore alone.
Jing Yi and Violet, my secondary school friends who so used to call me rainbow back then.. hahaaa! Kinda funny thinking about it. We had a pact. I will dyed my hair rainbow someday i said in the class back then and they took it so serious they are still talking about it right now. It was great to hear from them. Great to hear the familiar nickname. You started to miss all these small things you know, it's all part of the greatest memory.
And i'll wrap this post up with my beloved mother. I am nobody without her. Or i shall say, without my family. They are everything to me. I love them very, very much the last thing i will do is to hurt them. Thanks for all the patience you all put up with me when i'm having my 'angst' moment. Did i mention my mom made me a scarf and winter hat? She made it herself. That made them very special to me. She said i gonna use it someday and she might as well make it now. You know it's so sourish and sweet at the same time. I love you mom, and i love the presents you had me prepared.
I'm a blessed child. I'm nothing special i'm nobody, they made me somebody, they made my living worthwhile. Thanks for molding me into the person i'm very much fascinated by myself, love being it. But sometimes it sucks being me also but anyway, thank you. Thank you.
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