I went down to Ampang yesterday. I wanted to be away from home, i wanted to have some alone time. If i don't do that i would probably already go insane. It's suffocating.
I went down and called Wen if she free to go to night market. Every Friday there would be night market near my old house and she said she will pick me up at 8pm. So, went walked and bought foods and settled our dinner straight at the night market. I accompanied her to walk in a near by mall. She said she was selected to pick moon cakes this year for her company and would like to do some market research first. We compared the prices and she may have to discuss with her manager before making any decision.
And, she said her client gave her 3 movie tickets and she called me to go with her. Honestly, i have nothing to do today and agreed to go. The movie was great. A very fantasy-like film. Its name called 'The Mortal Instrument- The City of Bones'. It's good to watch such movie once in a while, keeping myself from something depressing. After the movie she went to her part time work and i went back home. I stopped by Amcorp Mall and spent some time in the bookstore before going up the bus.
About my driving-me-crazy train of thoughts, i don't know how to begin. I have really bad temper the past few days and easily lost my control on my emotions. It is really hard trying to figure out who you really are. I've been selective when it comes to this, certainly my parents are totally out of the circle of discussion. I don't know if it is really only me or teens did spend a lot of time thinking about the same thing. Will they get lost in their thoughts sometimes?
I've sought for many ways to get my emotions under control. I read books. I write. I talk to friends. I blog. I make Vlog. I even go for God hope that He can help me. Now, i can't believe i go for crystal. I bought myself a crystal necklace(with certain ability) and now it is hanging around my neck. I'm wearing it. How crazy, constantly finding ways to clear my thoughts and get held on my emotions.
Things can get bad and get really bad. I think i would need psychologist someday in the future.
I've written this last week and... yeah...
O' The Devil of Nightmare
O' the devil of nightmare!
Uncontrolled pederasty in the country
Covered the bright blue sky with a veil of darkness,
A familiar yet strange cloth of darkness;
A famished demon awaiting devouring its sons.
O' the devil of nightmare!
Leave us the peace state of mind,
Free us from the catatonic dreamland
Where the cathedrals do no good
For the last solace,
The remains- weeping of the mundanes.
O' the devil of nightmare!
Til' the golden eye looks onto this rotten land,
You'll be damned into the abyss of
Never reincarnation!
Marry the merry!
Marry the merry!
And cheer for the merry!
-Sai Kit-
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