The Funeral

What would you care the most when someone has just passed away?

As i mentioned yesterday my great uncle had passed away and today was his funeral, i saw crowds clustered beneath the canvas. I never know that he has such a big number of friends. My aunt has been worried throughout the whole funeral. The payment. It's something realistic someone got to think about, no one goona do it free for you despite the fact you have just lost someone, beside sadness.

Everything was fine as what i saw in the funeral.

Just one question which i just wrote on the opening of my post. What you care the most? Be honest and sincere to yourself. Consider you are dead and left in the world are your beloved soul mate and children, what would you hope to see? This is something very subjective, and me, maybe because of my father i have a very different thinking, sort of the same like my father, i admired him on this, or should i say most of the aspects in life.

Being a son, if my parents pass away, i'm just saying and carries no offences, i would do whatever seem right to be done at that time. Funeral is something inevitable which you have to get it done in front of all the relatives. In the Chinese society we are kind of constraint by all the rules. Every race, every tribe has their rules where the elders thought we should all follow fully despite anything. I don't know, for me it's ridiculous.

I'm not a superstitious Chinese young adult, i never get myself constricted by such ridiculous rules. For a certain extend, yes, i would follow but i have a limit, and i admit that i do not have patience, i'm still learning. If someone are forced to follow all the rules and made their life kind of turns up side down, what's the point?

You are only allow to go home after 7 days after the funeral.
What kind of rule is that? So they should just sleep at the corridor.

Daughters are not allow to pay their last respect to their parents for the last and ever time, only if after a certain number of days. 
Talk some sense into the God damn rule! Daughters are not their children now?

You have to buy this and that during the funeral because it's a tradition which passes down centuries ago without considering your economical status, it's a MUST so you got to do it no matter what way you use. 
What is this? They even having problems to feed themselves already!!

If the children do not have such ability to do such a thing, why would you want to force them? I don't mean the ones who lie in the coffin and i have no right to comment if they ordered them to do so right before they pass away. But, see, you rather looking at your children suffering on your funeral which practically means nothing but just a process because YOU.ARE.ALREADY.DEAD. what is the main concern? Parents hope for the best for their children and no one, never, wants to see their children suffer in such a way. They could have some problems like family or business or any personal stuffs, why being so stubborn? They are sad for the lost and now another thing came by, what should they do?

I believe not the parents themselves, is the relatives around who don't actually have a right to say anything because they are their parents, and their children. The people so call themselves 'the elders', never thought of the difficulties and stubbornly wanted the young ones to stick to such ridiculous stuffs, what the heck is that? Can't you all think sanely? Looking at them is devastating, feeling even puking.

I just don't understand. You can say i'm disrespectful, but i'm just being honest here, those things if you are able to afford all, you go ahead, but if you can't, don't put your head into shits. You know what, your parents, you have your stand. Despite what they say, you're the one who making the decision, not them. Who the hell they think they are? Be rational, don't ever influence by those who meant to mess up your mind, they don't worth you looking after their 'fragile' heart, fuck off.

You want to know why they are here, the relatives, big part is for the money. I don't want to go into details, you know what i'm about to say. Just that if i'm the one who involved, one day in the future, i would do sanely according to the situation. Relatives? Fuck off if you're not here to help but messing things up, i will literally kick your ass.

This is what my dad told me: Everything, you do it accordingly to your ability. I want it simple, and that's it. You know what is right to be done by then.

I know what to do.