I fucked up a beautiful day

Today the chief augmented a very important event; a meaningful event to all the physical therapists around the world- The World Physiotherapy Day. It was supposed to happen last week but due to heavy workloads in the hospital the HOD of physical therapy department decided to put it a week later. It took quite some effort to make this function successful and there i feel this function has brought all of us together- HOD, physical therapists, and physical therapy students. It will continue for another 3 days and may God bless us. 

I had my lunch with a group of new friends i met in this clinical placement. They are from UKM and they are incredible, passionate, and sincere group of people. You feel energetic when you are doing things with them. It is that passionate they are and working with these people makes you positive. But on the same day, i had a small conflict with my friend, too. I was explaining to her about how HOD will need our help tomorrow so she cannot sit for her exam, she will have to postpone it. She grimaced and said some stuff and i lost it i spoke a little too loud, and the worst is, i walked away straightaway afterwards. She didn't want to talk to me the rest of the day. I feel bad, terrible in fact, for doing that and i know i have that issue long ago. I just don't know why i couldn't control it. I did it and i regretted that. So, i sent her a text message saying how sorry i am, she saw it and she never replied. I did feel bad and i do what i should since i know this is my problem long ago. I apologized and she seemed to hold grudges..? Sometimes i wish i could just keep quiet and let things roll down hill and don't give a shit but my damn temper always kicked me out of my place. I feel so bad i feel like i fucked up a beautiful day.

I tend to overthink, probably things weren't as bad as it seem.. I know how important exams and stuff are but we are now doing clinical placement where we are kinda working too, you can be a little flexible, can't you? That's from my perspective. Anyway, i still feel bad about it so i hope it would not be awkward when i see her tomorrow. Talking to guys was a lot easier.. it's either we are good or we fight on the spot.. matter solved. lol.