It was an uneasy day. Ever since my sister got into a relationship she has been acting weird, cold and mysterious. She's is a little different from that little monster i used to grow up with. But i've been quiet and i didn't know the problem has evolved to a very difficult extend.
I went to college this morning to deal with my research project. And i met my sister there. I kinda let her know that she's been acting very mysterious and self-centered, and she replied that she will do explanation to all of us when she got home. And there the problem unfold. We talked for quite a long time and she cried the whole way, and i really didn't want to think if she's been telling the truth. It is not right to judge your sister that way. But given her emotions just now, i think there will be at least 70% truth she had uttered. I really hope she realises that we love her a lot and she will be able to manage her problems and make progression.
On the same day, i talked to my tutor about going abroad to work when i'm graduated. We have been talking for more than 30 minutes and at the end of our conversation, it's not so easy. There are a lot of procedures and hard work to prove yourself; your willingness to make this leap a success. I know i will face a lot of problems even before she told me, but compare to what i have to leave behind, my family, those problems are nothing. I love them a lot and i'm leaving them to create my future, my family, elsewhere, away from home. This part of me really want to leave if i can but another part of me is holding me back, unless i can ever be a little selfish to leave everything behind and go for it. The same thing i've told Ms Chan, 'it's very frightening to have to leave home to a place you know nobody, know nothing about, and to have to deal with all the problems yourself'. So much to take in today...
Tomorrow starts my new job which will last for a month until my new semester begin. Let it start, shall we?
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