So today i stared at the sky and asked God

Holidays coming to an end soon so is chinese new year, and i had a blast. It's not so much of visiting here and there but to stay peaceful until i go back to a hectic study life. So i enjoyed peace this whole holiday; breakfast watch shows nap snacks sleep snacks again dinner play games watch shows and sleep again. Sounds kinda wasting my life but this is precious when you didn't have rest for the past 6 months!

I visited Port Dickson with my family on the third day of chinese new year. We stayed two nights there and we had so much fun. We went to Malacca as well and there i got myself a chinese poem which rhymed with my name, she wrote it on the spot within a minute or two. Brilliant artistic woman! I should have gotten Bavita one.

Bav and I have been going really close these days and i kinda feel that this is leading somewhere. It's like time to tell her to be my girlfriend but... I have met a few girls who are all very nice person in the past but as always i don't know if i should do it... the fact that i'm still a little confused i afraid that one day if i've changed i will break her heart badly... i don't want to be that person cuz she's a very very sweet and nice girl.. breaking hers is like breaking my heart... We hung out a lot these days really.. we watched movies, window shopping, dining together and stuff and i do enjoy very much... the fact that she's willing to keep going out with me, just me, is not just simply we're good friends anymore, i feel something and sometimes you can tell even though we do hangout alone very often... really, it's not that i don't have the gut to tell her to be my girlfriend or afraid of commitment or rejected i'm just afraid that... you know.. i've already mentioned it just now.. i don't know what i should do she's a catch and i... should i just go for it or what?

We planned so many things together; Disneyland in London, Legoland in Malaysia; Rome in Italy, nice dinners etc up to an extend where my friends and family starting asking me if i'm dating her. And me myself find the same thing it's really going somewhere if i keep on doing this... and i don't know if i should stop or just keep having good time with her.. In fact, if it's really happening i already have plans when and where to tell her to be my girlfriend..

So today i stared at the sky and asked God: What kind of plan do you have for me? Can you lead me?