More rants

I have both good and bad things happened for the past few days.

So i got my semester 2 results. I was good and i never expected that. I went to the office with my friends just today after our classes, the breakdown of my subject's marks weren't that delighting, for me. I mean, i could have done better. Or i'm just too hard on myself.

Since the first day back to university, i have lost all the free time. I didn't have time for my story books anymore, i don't have time for my poetry and so did my short stories. What i did for the last 2 weeks was reading physical therapy materials. I do like to read them but not on a daily basis. It takes time to digest them and yet the lecturers put on so much of stress and works for us. Presentation, tutorial works and such. I need a break so badly! Anyhow i like the way Ms Chan stimulates our brain to function and  make us to read more and understand further from proper sources. I like it that way but that's tiring. A price to pay and it worth it.

I went for 2 interviews last semester because my lecturers needed help from my friends and I. Those interviews are for the sake of running homegrown physical therapy course with higher number of students in one intake, and in collaboration with Angalia Ruskin as well. So, we went and did all the sweet talks and eventually we were rewarded nothing.

Let me be clear here. I'm a student and of course it would be really an advantage if you get Angalia Ruskin to back you up when you get out to work as a PT. But the problem here is, we went and did the interviews so carefully and things like that, for the very least we all deserved respect. You fucking idiot please don't come and slap us with 'bad results' on our face and that's the reason Angalia Ruskin not considering us. If that was suppose to be a joke, you're bad joke teller and you just need to shut the fuck up. Moreover, in the record that's demotivating your students, are you sure you want to do that? If your intention is to get your students buckled up that way, i'm not sure, just not sure you did it the right way. Bet you have never read the book 'Tuesday With Morrie'.

I understand too, the time we got out to work it's more important how you carry yourself and such but what i'm saying is it's an advantage. You know i'm just not sure, again, if they ever fought for us for the collaboration's sake. We did our part perfectly well, and so should you! I don't mind to pay more anyhow my loan would be still the same. The study loan can totally cover that up. You know what, fuck it. What you know is to spit venom into your students' face. So that's what you're good at.

Then, what the fuck my earring has to do with you. In fact i didn't put on one, it was just a stick to prevent hole closes up. You have seen me wearing it for over a year now and today you literally FORCED me to take out that stick and let it closes up? What the fuck are you thinking? Your eyes ARE threatening but bitch please, i'm not the one who succumbed easily especially on something personal. What it pricks you so terribly and you have to look into me in that demonic way as if my earring would kill your career or whatever thing? That fucking harm i didn't reliaze. No, it's invisible and you're just creating problems. Can't you make peace with people just for a second? Conversation is so hard i choose to avoid you so i can escape from being bashed unreasonably. It's really fine if you don't like me, it's a free option. I'm not born to impress you anyway. I'll do well and you'll fucking see.

And please stop that you-are-out-of-my-consideration-range-you-have-no-value-for-me-getting-you-a-job shit, i'm sick of it! What do you think you are a god? So you like to manipulate people like that even your students? Fuck that's shitty. I told myself i will do well and your fucked up mindset is just wrong. Another thing, if you're fucking asking for help, ask nicely. Don't threat us. Nahh, you will turn down whatever plans we have in our mind because you ALREADY have one starting from the beginning. Correct me.

Just earlier this morning our second slot's class got cancelled and we were chilling at the bench and had a serious talk to understand each other better. I was glad to have that chat with Eddison and uhm, i apologize for those bad impressions. I understand better now. Thanks.

Lastly, for the past few days whenever i have a free 1 or 2 hours time i will stream movies online, a quick stress reliever. So i had been watching a lot gay-themed movies and particularly this movie drew most of my attention. In fact, i streamed twice. 'The Wedding Banquet'. You should watch that. Chinese culture with military background, and homosexuality. Just put away your weird pair of sights and watch it. It's good. Very. And this one called 'Milk'. About how he turned to be a politician and fight for gay rights. It's good too but at some point i don't quite understand. The name of the activist is 'Harvey Milk'. And by the way, James Franco has a role in the film too! I mean, i'm just telling :D

That's probably all. Good night.