Changed

so it's friday again. opss hello nothing to do with Rebecca Black's Friday okay :)

today so many things happened. college, someone told me about someone, and i got frightened. they're so damn weird, and, hmm, well, i better not to write about them, just to show my respect to them. but overall, by matured thinking I should think of both sides, who know maybe one of them making it over saturated?

about tonight, i had a drinking session with all those old friends. is that consider as a "successfully gathering"? personally i don't think so. however to only thing should be glad of was only the numbers of people attending were all there, and few unexpected participants x)

No offense, simply my opinions. not your channel, switch to the other.

thinking why i said the gathering was so mess up? firstly, environmental factor. we had our drink at a open food stall, and unpredictably there was a THROWING DISTANCE accident! a motor lost control and bang to the table behind us, and unfortunately there were quite a number of peoples sitting there, and one of them get hurt as he drop on the floor. hmm, accident has no smell, who want it? and luckily, non of us get hurt.

secondly, during the whole gathering there's a person never talk to another person, where i think she mad on her. but com'on, something that we have to accept that we're growing up, you expect people are not changing as time passes? no one has a reason why he/she got to stay stationary right? when she refuse to do it, it's fine but when we agree with it, then let's pass the day happily. it's not necessary to put all the emotions and moods on the face right? it's was what i observed. sometime it's very hard to communicate with her, i am serious and i am not kidding. do she ever think of the same incident typically happened on her only? sometime being straight forward it's good but it has a limit where you has no necessary to embarrass people when you're going too direct, and do you ever though of people's circumstances when they're not able to reply you and there are so many people around. you'll just make the atmosphere awkward.

some people was adapted to that not always, NOT ALL.

thirdly, myself thought that the gap between us apparently become wider and further. maybe they have the topic to chat, but i was like a "forever alone" who only stare and listening to what's their chat. it's so hard to squeeze out a topic, from myself. and again, the atmosphere again became so weird when everyone stop talking as the topic ended, not even continuing to crap shit. just, i aren't that close with them anymore. sadly, since when it became like that? :'(

at last, i ended up with a "bye".

today was just so damn complicated, tonight as well as in college.

p/s: i knew it'll become awkward after i posted this, but this is what a true message meant.