A toast to myself

My sister just got into a relationship with a boy she met in the university. To be specific, he is her classmate. He joined us for dinner after the date with my sister. A young lad, looked really young and hopefully reliable. I'm really happy for my sister. She laughed more than she used to and i'm glad for her. And all these got me into some thinking.

When is my turn? My parents started asking me about getting into a relationship. What they didn't know is i' not into girls. And it's really hard for me to bring this up... To attempt a relationship here feels like killing me. I feel bad for not able to live with them with part of me in the shade... i just can't. This place is just not the place to start, to gain courage. It makes me feel out of breath sometimes.

A toast to my career, my other half, and my life; the truest one. Cheers.

A wrap-up post

Such a long time since i last posted. I will make a short wrap up post before i hit the sack.

I have been terribly busy since the day i reached KL. Which mean, clinical posting has come to an end. I met bad people and i met good people, so i brought a mixture of feelings back home but for whatever happened to me in the past 6 weeks, thank you for teaching me a lesson and those who had helped me through my toughest time, i appreciate them. I received lots and lots of love. 

I met my friends before hectic study life hit again. We met on Sunday night and we had so much fun. I have missed them. It feels good to sit down and talk to them again. I wish i stay near to them. 

Tans of work to do this month. Clinical documentations, clinical presentations, classroom presentations, online course, personal coursework with my lecturer, 3 coming exams, and i think there is some more which i can't remember. Oh, and debt to clear. I can really die. 

But let's do this, i made it through last semester and this semester, it cannot be harder than the last one. So, let's do it!

P/S: Here's the photo i took before i left I-sports. Amazing people to work with. 

An expensive lesson

This is a terrible week. I got cheated and im very embarrassed to talk about it.

From my personal experience, never believe anyone you met online. If you still want to give it a shot, i wish you good luck. If you happen to find the one who is also serious, im happy for you. But for me, it is just too bad i lost my faith on it.  

This time, i will take it as a lesson. An expensive lesson, and it will never ever happen again. How could i fall into this... Im just too stupid and at the same time, desperate. And it will never happen again. I swear.

After a hard tough day

I had a very sad day. Both heart and mind, and also bank. I was fooled, i got cheated. Luckily i have got Yean and Bavita, i cant tell how much i thank them. I called home just now. I heard my mom's voice and my tears rolled down. I broke down after i hung up. Hopefully things go back to normal after this week.