Met Shane Filan tonight!

on Saturday, November 9, 2013
Shane Filan from Westlife came to Malaysia for 2 events and i attended one of them- his autograph event in One Utama! I reached there pretty early and waited for more than 5 hours just to get his autograph! In fact, i got more than autograph. I talked to him, exchanged a handshake, and a picture with him!! That's the main, he agreed to take a picture with him!! Thank you!! You have no idea how much it meant to me!!

Here's what i wrote on facebook i gonna put it here as well:

"            This photo is not easy, it's a WAR with the crews but Shane Filan is kind enough to say 'Yes'!! I have always thought queuing up for autograph is stupid but now i realized, if he/she is your idol this gonna be whole different story. I said "It's an honour to meet you" and he replied me "It's an honour to meet you TOO!" Then we exchanged a handshake and got his autograph. This is totally the best thing happened right before i go for clinical posting! This is IN-SHANEEEEEEE!!!"

It is definitely a good day! Wishing him all the best for his solo career! Love from Malaysia!




Stigmas about homosexuality?

on Thursday, November 7, 2013
My sister called me to watch a video on youtube and it was a fabulous video and yet interesting.

The name of that video is 'What if hetero was frowned upon' and carried an amazing information. Based on its name, more or less, you already know what is the content of that video. So, as mentioned above, what if homosexual is normal whilst heterosexual is not? The video depicted a fantastic information and indeed important for all people to know. Some people said it was dramatized but if you have seen the youths or people who suffered the from it you won't say that. You say you may still be their friends but not to know a single detail about their sex life but would you be very much interested of a hetero sex life? I mean that doesn't make sense because as an individual that's private and either way it shouldn't be asked or shared.

A lot of people afraid that they may go to hell or their religion forbids homosexuality. When you ask why so and the reason is pretty simple: God doesn't make you that way- to like the same gender, homosexual people can't reproduce! Well personally they're pretty constrained and the thing that worries them is the nation will go extinct. Oh dear God, you have made a handful of humans but why didn't you make them possess a little wisdom?

First, if a God decided to put you into hell simply because you're homosexual, i don't see at all the point of you staying beside him. You can scold me for degrading the God but let's be realistic, if God did that to His believers would you really like Him? This is the same when an empire has a bad ruler, the citizens are risen to fight against his cruelty. Doesn't that make things clear? I have my belief and i believe in my God for His kindness for all His believers. He made us because he wants us to live and as well love each others. That's what his teaching has always been i won't deny that for the very least. And so, why would he punish us for just being your own with your own skin and in fact, you're a lovely person who does no harm to anyone! If a crime culprit is to compare to a gay person, com'on, isn't clear enough who's the real problem here. Conclusion, He loves us. He won't put his lovely believers into hell for being themselves and instead of that, He loves them even more. If you believe, you believe. I believe. Because in every religion the God shares a mutual purpose- The best for their believers and love them no matter what because, as everyone said, they are our fathers, afterall.

Second, God didn't make homosexual, He didn't make humans that way. Okay, who the hell are you to speak upon God. So should a person blindly believe whatever that's written by men, after centuries and centuries, was altered for numerous times, how accurate can it be? If you really wanted a guideline so badly. Let me tell you, if a human can't even capable of thinking or rationalize a matter, and simply believe whatever written which was thought passing down by the God don't know how many centuries ago, please, put on your thinking cap and think about it again.

And, reproduction? How funny you're worry about reproduction. I would rather say every person favours different things. Thus some individuals are much prefer to live a life with the same gender and some with different gender. So there's no point of worrying about extinction because homosexuality are not capable of killing off the whole nation! There are people who love being in a heterosexual relationship and so they can have children. What's the big deal? Every single minute passed a person is dead, as being estimated, due to many factors like famine or contagious diseases. If that doesn't kill the whole nation in the past history why would you even worry about homosexual relationship? Simply because they can't reproduce doesn't mean that they're defected or what, they're still a human being who God has put in a big effort of making him. And there are couples who are infertile and you never grouped them in. Reason is simple, they are still a human being, loved by the people who cared about them. The same principle applying to homosexual persons.

The only problem here is stereotype. And this is unfair. And your personal point of view is selfish. A person who never follows the crowd doesn't make them a queer. They simply don't like the thing most people favoured. And you gotta learn that it is a fact. You like reading but i don't. You like eating greens but i don't. Simple as that. You won't like people calling you a weirdo when you don't share a common interest. And definitely people won't call you a weirdo as well for not eating greens because in their mind, it is fine to hate eating vegetables.

And the topic of being a homosexual is a choice. Please don't drag that in. It doesn't matter if it is a choice or not because people adjust to make themselves comfortable. I don't deny environment plays a part but remember, reason for a person to change varies due to a number of factors and 'born with it' is one of all. We try not to judge. We are no them. We don't know a thing. Let's be just neutral here. Just think neutral. The problem nowadays is majority of people has accepted that homosexual is abnormal and such acceptance changes when the majority thought it is okay. How horrifying it is people just follow as if they don't have a choice. In fact, they do.

The hatred and bully happening all around the world are overwhelming and i think they're lacking an open-mind to learn. So much things to learn and if a person couldn't put down his egoism and open up his mind, there will never be an improvement. Trust me. Suicide has become a common solution for youths who undergoing such hellish torment. What i'm trying to say is, you gotta be strong. Just stand up and be strong. Things can get very bad but you still have to be strong because if you don't, no one can do anything for you. Before getting help from others you need to help yourself. Before getting respect from others you gotta respect yourself and most importantly, before you can love a person, you gotta love yourself first. Everything starts with yourself and you will somehow get an energy to keep moving on. For no one but yourself. And definitely you can do it because once you're out of the mist, you're good because you're strong now, no one can ever harm you. Nobody can. Love yourself.

I have no idea who may read this but anyone who is undergoing a very hard time and read this by accident, i hope you can put back up your big boy pants and start putting yourself back on your feet backing to your life, outed of depression. You deserve a little smile in heart. Somehow at some point in your life, you will need to keep reminding yourself to never back up and be brave to walk the path down every single day. You will be amazed how far you have gotten yourself already>When you look onto the bright blue sky, panting sweating and feeling the warm sunlight shining on your skin. Can you feel the wind caressing your cheek? Your hair's flying the grass is singing. And that's how your future looks like. You don't give up.

May God bless.

I WILL CRUSH YOU

on Wednesday, November 6, 2013
今天想用华语下笔。

今天被我的阿姨搞得非常生气。若不是因为得去看婆婆,我是不会去见她的。每次看见她准没好事。他妈的她真的是一个标准的反社会者。

由小我就对我自己说若不要看别人脸色,自己一定要出色。因为你一旦有求于人你就注定要看别人脸色。有时候有些情况不允许我们不求别人,但是你一定要尽你全力以避免此事情发生。

可能我不够好,我学习得不够优秀才会有今天的事情发生,才会如此被人奚落。我很谢谢她又让我重新有了动力,有了另一个原因继续前进,继续努力,继续比现在做得更好。我不是要证明些什么,我只是不要别人看不起我。我们家已经受够这种折磨,我没有理由要让这愚蠢兼无畏的“传统”继续流传下一代。这个必须在我踏入社会时正式结束。我没有理由要继续让我家人受这种气,这种待遇。无论发生什么事情,做人一定要有骨气。什么难处都得咬紧牙关走下去。他们活着就是要见证我们倒下的那一刻。我不会让这种事情发生,一定不能。

我答应过我自己,我的成功正是给他们一记狠狠的耳光。我得努力,我得走出来,我得给他们狠狠一记耳光。别低估我,我会让你后悔。彻底后悔。只要你够优秀就没有人敢看不起你,就没有人会对你不敬。

I WILL CRUSH YOU.

These are my friends

on Monday, November 4, 2013
On the past saturday and sunday were Deepavali and my friends invited me to their homes.

On saturday i went to Priya's house and so happened that her dad's friends came to her's at the same time as mine. So i had to leave early and kinda blamed Priya for not letting me know beforehand before she had a chance to explain. I'm a little impulsive sometimes i'm trying to change that. She walked me to my car and we had a short conversation just before she had to go back there to take care of her dad's friends. Very short conversation and we both wanted more time. Really, i sometimes resented her for some weird stuffs but when we start talking again we kinda leave that behind us. It happens all the time. But, i can't imagine life without her. She's my very good friend. 

Later at night i went out with Wen. I always call her out for dinner when i'm back to Ampang. And, whenever we hangout we used to eat a lot the whole time. No difference for this time too. We took our dinner first before hanging out at cyber center. About 2 hours later we went to McDonald's for supper. So we eat again. Ice-cream, apple pie, drink, and french fries. One good thing about both of us: We never get fat deposited beneath our skin. Whenever we feel like eating, we just eat. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, or supper, we just eat. Good huh. Moments with her are the best moments always. You can be yourself completely and just talk. She won't get offended when i say something rude. And so am I. We are just comfortable when we're hanging out. 

The next day i went to Bav's place for her open house. She's celebrating Deepavali. Tammy and Eddy came as well. So we are the Trio from college visiting her. We had our lunch there (Eddy had too much he couldn't sit still afterwards :D ) and we made acquaintances with Bav's friends. Everything went pretty well. Later then i drove back to PJ.

>> Priya and Wen, you both are my very good friends and i'm hoping the best for both of you. Big hugs with love. 

Simply thought this is beautiful ;)