CR result

Today i was pretty sad. Sad because of my CR result.

It's not my result wasn't good, but i could have gotten better. You might think all the candidates say the sane thing but not for my case. A mistake i couldn't even forgive myself.

I forgot to do one question.

Okay, fine, maybe not the whole question. It separated into part A and B, when i was done with A, i went straight to the next question instead of doing B. So, left B undone. 4 marks, 4 marks!! And the question was so easy i swear i can score a full mark!!

It's not that i'm not grateful or i was too hard on myself but this is a mistake that shouldn't be made! How could somebody like me forgot to left one question behind? If the case is i do not know how to solve the question, fine, i take that. But... but... Haihhh, i was really sad. I didn't speak with my friends the whole afternoon despite i sat with them all the time. They were real fond and kind to me, they had been trying to cheer me up all the while but you know me, once i was sad it lasts for a long time, it won't subside even though people are trying to chin me up. But still, thank all you guys for doing that. I think it is because i paid so much effort on it and that was what i deserve? That is the problem i reckoned.

So i told my mom when i was home. She squeezed my hand and spoke nothing. That was what i needed the most at that time. That was more than enough, and it meant so much to me. Love you, mom.

Really sad, dwell long enough for that, and i'm tired of being sad. Let's be awesome instead!

In the next test, i will do even better! I'm not going to leave out any question already! Promise!

p/s: Haven't been taking any photos lately... So bored.

Day of quotes

I saw a lot of quotes today on a page on facebook. The admin's name is Owen Yap. He is the news reporter on 8 TV.

He wrote so many impressive and inspiring quotes that make so much sense and those quotes are actually very close to our daily life! I mean whatever i've been through, he said it all for me. He actually made me feels so much better, lie the time i couldn't forgive others and myself, i've been suffering a lot and now when i think about it, that was silly. And there were so many more. I hope i somehow have a better memory so i can remember all and keep myself reminded.

He becomes my idol already. Haahaa!

p/s 1: Be yourself, be comfortable with yourself.
p/s 2: Do not compare with others, compare with yourself.
p/s 3: Forgive people and forgive yourself.
p/s 4: Something precious always worth waiting for.
p/s 5: Why mind so much on what others say? You are you.
p/s 6: The ultimate truth is silent is golden.
p/s 7: Don't give up on what you hold on to.
p/s 8: Make others happy. It makes you happy too.
p/s 9: You tell others who you are, not them.
p/s 10: Never ever rely on people partially and completely.
p/s 11: Complete your life with a purpose, don't lost yourself.
p/s 12: Don't mind too much on other's criticism. It hides you from success, what you want.
p/s 13: Talk your talk, walk you walk. Walk your talk despite other's talk.

my own quote always keep me going: Keep walking, don't stop.

Just happy i found it!

I've got story to tell but i'm too tired i couldn't stay too long. Just feeling to update a little cuz' it has been sometime i never drop anything here.

I was doing my revision just now, now i'm in grave fatigue stage so that's why. I have an assessment coming up in next few days, i just want to do well with all my efforts, willingly.

The main thing in this short post is i finally see the importance and the use of being a physiotherapist. Frankly speaking i'm not hardworking to be a doctor, so as my brain capacity to store all those vital information. But being a physiotherapist i'm not only learning the theory but the practical at the same time. Most importantly, the fee is affordable. My parents have always been supportive for me studying this course.

At the first 2 months i still remember i was struggling, i was new i reckon so i wasn't used to this course and new friends and new environment i almost cry and quit it. I'm very happy i didn't. I'm so impress i have walked so far, already almost a year! I mean, although 3 years more to go, i'm still happy i didn't quit that time. My parents will be sad and i'll now be regret. Anyway, my passion on journalism never diminishes, just i think i can do it later when i'm older. Something i wanted to get it done before i die.

I see how a physical therapist works. How the skills being applied. I do not know how to put it into words. The feeling is abstract but i can tell you it is so real! I'm just happy.

Now on i will do my best to stay in this course, complete the degree, get out of the university not only aim for money but to help people, gain experience and get myself into military camp to work! I've always wanted to do that for armies, i respected them very much! When i get older i wanted to volunteer to other countries to provide my professional helps to the poors, with whole volunteer medical team.

I want to do all those i mentioned above, sincerely. I always wanted to help people, and through this way, i can help all of them! I wanted to be successful, a good and successful physical therapist not to impress anyone or earn the world greatest fortune but to ensure my skills are correctly orientated so i won't harm anyone and instead restore their health.

I am very happy. I can't tell how happy i am. I thought i was wrong, very wrong to be in this course but now, not anymore. I'm so glad i'm here. I will do my best. I will. I promise. This time, real. So long i never been this happy and content. How great actually to find something you wanted to achieve. Those are goals i wanted to accomplish before i die! No matter what!

Keep walking, don't stop.

B.day- just another day

Nothing is good. Life is good with nothing happening. Dull is just another form of calmness.

I told Tammy and few friends who are closed to me in university and that made me feel better. They didn't speak much about their opinions and i didn't expect it anyway. Sometimes you just wanted to share something and no feedback asked. They got that.

I reached home, i slept for 2 hours. On the floor. It rained once i stepped my foot into the door, thundering outside my bedroom's window, He felt me.

My parents brought us out for dinner and there my dad met his friends. We talked briefly while eating, just casual dinner talk. The remaining of my night spent in front of telly. Planned to read a little but failed eventually, as always.

Tomorrow's class gonna be 2 hours only. My friends are planning to catch a movie afterwards. I was thinking should i go cuz' last Saturday costed me a fortune- the room. Sincerely, i didn't expect it was that expensive.

Last time i used to think b.day is a very important event and every of my friends and family have to remember it. As i grow older i realize... birthday is just another day.

I don't need any gifts, i don't need any surprise party. Greet me with a card, that's all i want. Simple as that. Or a dinner with me, that would be nice too. Nothing more than that.

Now, i don't ask more. I read, and i realize life worth more than that.

Start giving. Giving anything, any form.

People never learn to give, never learn to live.