I went up to the stage!! Unprepared!!

I was thinking if i should do a compilation of all that happened this week but i think it'll be too long... Or let's just keep it simple.

Let's begin with the last Monday. I had a class with my mentor Ms Chan and instead of having a class we discussed about future. I got plenty of questions to ask her because she had a lot of experiences and exposures, she truly the one person i can ask. So, i ask her a lot about job opportunity abroad as well as residency, so she told me. I appreciated her a lot. Really. If i would be able to get a job abroad upon my graduation it'll be of her help. I really hope that day will come. Really.

And today, i went to work for my dad in the morning and at night, i went to a mini music concert. This morning we are working on this unit, forth floor, and i couldn't even see how my colleague worked on the air-cond. It is too hard to explain, all i can say was, it was so damn dangerous. He did not put on any safety measures, and it was four floors away from the ground. And the space for him to turn and stuff was so so so small, you have no idea how fast my heartbeat went. Sometimes people don't understand the tough works behind all these jobs that make your had black. The stake they took is very high it may take a live. I just love my dad even more now. That'd how he works all these years.

At night, on this mini music concert, it was really fun. A lot of performances like singing, piano and guitar performances by the students and teachers of this music centre. It's not like grand or anything but people come together and sit and enjoy music on a weekend's night. It's fun, it's healthy, and cheap. Each of us payed 10 bucks to enter and they provided us food and drinks. Which means, all the money they had collected were all came back to us again. It was really great. I think the organizer wanted to just spread the music to our small community. When the management was giving them problem they still did it anyway, really great!

And without plan or anything, my friends and I went up to the stage and threw a sudden performance! Mine was pretty bad cuz i did not have my notes all i had were phone and a lot of factors as well.. anyway at the end of my sucky performance the audience still gave me a round applause! So nice of them! Loving this community! And my friend, he was a good amateur singer, so he sang well. Even a girl wanted a picture with him! I never thought that i would have gut to go up the stage.. well, i did! So i am really happy! Hope to join for a proper performance in the next mini music concert!

2 amazing people i met today

I met 2 amazing people today :)

I have this subject called the Malaysian Studies where we are compulsory to learn about our country and I went to this class, and I found myself enjoying it. My teacher is a Malay and she is so updated to the current affairs of not only Malaysia but worldwide. Other than that, she was so good in the world history in all aspect. At the end of the class i went up to her and said that i enjoyed her class very much it was a very eye-opening class and there we had a few discussions about my curiosities. You know how your anatomy lecturers are so clear with the human body and she's something like that, but in political science and i think i enjoyed her class a lot, like clearing my doubts at one go. I don't understand how people find all these tedious but to me, it's awesome to know all these; so enriching! "Mix around with the international students and you'll find the mind working so differently from us and that's how you open your mind, be more accepting and improves yourself without you realising it!" I'm so looking forward to her class next week.

The second person was from Peneng. I'm leaving to Peneng again for my clinical posting and Ms Chan found a place for us through this head of physical therapy department in one of the hospitals in Peneng. So,  i called her up and we discussed about it. She offered a very, very friendly price for 2 rooms including the electric and water bill, you will not believe it. And she even thought of the transport for us. You know how you feel so loved when a stranger is even considering this. A cheap rental means heaven to us already, really! So i told her that transport it's not a problem for us we can always walk; I CAN always walk i don't know about my friend. I'm so used to walking it is just like going back to my last posting where i have to walk 15 to 20 minutes every morning to get to the bus stop. I appreciate her help so much i don't know how many 'thanks' i said in our conversation. 

Then, i was so excited to tell my this friend and at the end, i would appreciate a 'thank you' from you. I did all the works from departing from KL to Peneng to the place we gonna stay for that 6 weeks and all you said was 'ohh okay that's good :)' Not to say i'm petty or what but a 'thank you' would be great, after all i have done, and after all the bad things she did to me. Why is that so hard to pay your gratitude? Because we have histories? I really hope that she won't come to stay with me at the very first place. Luckily i insisted on having a separate room. 

Anyway, i thank them a lot for helping me out. People are not responsible for you and when people did something nice for you, please appreciate it and don't be so stingy of your 'thank you'. I just can't thank them enough :') 

I remember.

So today i stared at the sky and asked God

Holidays coming to an end soon so is chinese new year, and i had a blast. It's not so much of visiting here and there but to stay peaceful until i go back to a hectic study life. So i enjoyed peace this whole holiday; breakfast watch shows nap snacks sleep snacks again dinner play games watch shows and sleep again. Sounds kinda wasting my life but this is precious when you didn't have rest for the past 6 months!

I visited Port Dickson with my family on the third day of chinese new year. We stayed two nights there and we had so much fun. We went to Malacca as well and there i got myself a chinese poem which rhymed with my name, she wrote it on the spot within a minute or two. Brilliant artistic woman! I should have gotten Bavita one.

Bav and I have been going really close these days and i kinda feel that this is leading somewhere. It's like time to tell her to be my girlfriend but... I have met a few girls who are all very nice person in the past but as always i don't know if i should do it... the fact that i'm still a little confused i afraid that one day if i've changed i will break her heart badly... i don't want to be that person cuz she's a very very sweet and nice girl.. breaking hers is like breaking my heart... We hung out a lot these days really.. we watched movies, window shopping, dining together and stuff and i do enjoy very much... the fact that she's willing to keep going out with me, just me, is not just simply we're good friends anymore, i feel something and sometimes you can tell even though we do hangout alone very often... really, it's not that i don't have the gut to tell her to be my girlfriend or afraid of commitment or rejected i'm just afraid that... you know.. i've already mentioned it just now.. i don't know what i should do she's a catch and i... should i just go for it or what?

We planned so many things together; Disneyland in London, Legoland in Malaysia; Rome in Italy, nice dinners etc up to an extend where my friends and family starting asking me if i'm dating her. And me myself find the same thing it's really going somewhere if i keep on doing this... and i don't know if i should stop or just keep having good time with her.. In fact, if it's really happening i already have plans when and where to tell her to be my girlfriend..

So today i stared at the sky and asked God: What kind of plan do you have for me? Can you lead me?

Period that i'm thirsty

I always have that one period of time when that i'm so thirsty for love. Kinda embarrassed to say it's the truth. And these days are those days.